I am yearning for closure.

Many people talk about druggies, etc., without knowing precisely what it is that they're talking about. I don't know if anyone will read this, I haven't been on in a while, and alot of the people i used to talk to on here have lost respect for me. What a drug addict really is is a person so low, so caught up in whatever it is that they're doing, ( Read more... )

Is it worth it can you even hear me ( Read more... )

"Fuck you, I never want to see your face or hear your voice again you stinking fucking piece of shit" would have hurt a lot less. Damn. That sounds angry, but I'm not. Just horribly distraught. I don't know what I'm going to do. Actually thats a lie. I'm going to do nothing. I'm probably going to quit doing drugs because of this weekend, ( Read more... )

I've always been a little strange about death. It's never bothered me as much as it did other people when loved ones or friends died. Sometimes i wonder if I'm just a cold, heartless person, but i don't think that's the case. I suppose part of it is this world sucks, so he's gotta be happier upstairs, but i really don't think thats all of it. ( Read more... )

I'd like to apologize for scaring anyone. I meant what I said, but it turns out that it wouldn't be too responsible for me to go through with that right now, apparenty there are some things i have to take care of. Allow me to explain myself. I simply feel as if I'm never going to go anywhere. Part of the basis of this is that I've lived in ( Read more... )

I really don't know any way to put this without reminding myself of my younger stupider days but luckily the circumstances allow me not to give a shit. I've decided I'm going to have to finally kill myself. Thought I had found satisfaction in escape from my parents, but It wasn't enough. I'm so tired of being hindered by my disorder, and it's ( Read more... )

I'm fucking done. What i need to do is simply give up on people. Every last one of them. And keep to myself. It's not even their fault anymore i just feel like i can't relate to any of you. My friends are not my friends, and my enemies are not my enemies, i just don't want to deal with it any more, everyone is so full of shit, EVERYTHINGS a ( Read more... )

i need an accountant.

I really think i am. I think about really weird shit, all the time. Constantly. About philosophy, and the human mind, and our social structure and culture, and so many things just seem like they're wrong. I find myself disagreeing with things that have been considered fact for thousand's of years with simple reason - but am i right or off my ( Read more... )