screaming for something

[patrickplaytime]

 without all of this, i can see that im a nothing. and i tend to need someone or something to bring a smile or bring peace to myself, unfortunately.   k  i  c  k   out the posture i stand on and the good feelings that are miniscule anyway. kick me off gaurd, and let me bleed. i'll sleep better this way, i need to be cut deep...it helps me fall

Comments

[okayshawna]

he needs to give it up.

yeah, he cares about you immensely. obviously...
but it's not going to work.
how long has this been going on?

=/

why does he always think you're going to take him back? do you tell him different things then you tell me?

be COMPLETELY straight with him. dont confuse him. =[

[patrickplaytime]

its been going on since i came back from rehab basically. off and on. i dont know why he thinks im going to take him back because im different nowm just because im nice and said i care doesnt mean i want to spend time and develop something that i dont want happening.
i told him that i care and that ppl dont agree if i went out with you again. i also said i dont know what i want and we dont work out, at all. were just so different. i try to be striahgt up but i also make its so its kinda sugarcoated so he isnt completely heartbroken...he just says i know you cae bla blah blah...and im like i dont know if i do...it doesnt work with us...he is just lying to himself.

[patrickplaytime]

im going to make this available to everyone so he reads it.

WTF

[lovewatsthat]

I am not a fucking drunk.....u want to see adrunk look at my fucking father..and my mother and brothers...their the fucking drunks...not me.....i ahve a few drinks every sat. with my freinds and have a good time.....when i start waking up in the morning and need some alcohol to function then u can call me a drunk...but not before