i was correct. the new one left. the new friend now tells everyone that i hate him. funny, i think. i, who hates hate. i, who hates noone. i'm always looked at as a mean and unhappy person. i think it is because i stay to myself. becuase i do not waist myself on situations that are too straining and really mean nothing. i love meaning ( Read more... )

Its all spinning out of control. everything is flying away ( Read more... )

i'm strong than this. i'm better than this. i'm better than you ( Read more... )

i am procrastinating. i have so much work to do for my online class i will puke. powerpoint presentations. research papers. iy! but the semester i is comming to an end, finaly. next semester i am going to take too many classes. i may have to drop one as i go on. color and light science. product costing. comparative political systems. apparel ( Read more... )

got out of class early last night so i went over to michaels for smokes and food delivery. SURPRISE! he just received some valium. mmm, it was a nice relief to my busy mind and body lately. to feel lazy and relaxed. to feel nice and smooth and weightless. we went out to get wine. we sat around and stuffed our faces and laughed and laughed and it ( Read more... )

do do do...still slackin on my work. on my school. now i have a cold, prolly caught it from jesse. so i went over to his place last night so he could help my with my one project for class, and i ended up falling asleep sitting up on the couch and then waking up and playing tetris for hours. but things felt good. why am i so hypersensative? he was ( Read more... )

'the only abnormality is the incapacity to love.' fuck the world. i am sick of surounding myself byh those who are incapable of REALLY loving. loving a friend. loving a heart. a mind. a fucking soul. i see these ebautiful ideas and i love them. i love so much i dont think i can ever stop, and it willbe my destruction ( Read more... )

last night was insane. me and sarah had a little party atour place. just a little halloween get together. we made deserts and laura brought over some eats. and most importantly, i made cider with brandy and we were all ruined. it was me sarah jesse evan john martha rose laura josh guy. it was fun. lots of fun. me and john had a little fun before ( Read more... )

my sister asked me if i was moving back to buffalo. she said there were rumors going around. among who? and who cares enough to talk about me and where i am living? Alison Alison Alison ( Read more... )

I wrote Katie a long crying letter. Because she knows me. She wrote me back and I got the letter last night ( Read more... )