Still here. Sort of. Still unemployed. I've been working on getting this manuscript together. It's going well. I've added several things in the past few days ( Read more... )

There's a British website I've discovered fairly recently called The Retronaut which continually posts interesting historical photos and videos. I loved the one today which showed the artist Paul Gaugin seated at Alphonse Mucha's harmonium, trouserless.I'm a fan of Gaugin and I'm a fan of Mucha, but I'd never seen this photo. According to the book ( Read more... )

I'm not exactly sure why, but today is the first day since I've been unemployed that I've actually felt happy. I've felt varying degrees of depression or, mostly, apathy during the past six or seven weeks, like life just suddenly stopped. I feel like I've been hibernating in a cave for most of that time. It has been a tremendous effort to do much ( Read more... )

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Finally removed from my trunk two of the three boxes that constituted my "desk" at work. That took almost a month. Onward and upward.


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Alright, yes, I guess I AM depressed. Last week was pretty bad. This week has started a bit better, but I still feel like I've been dropped in the middle of an ocean, and all I can do is float silently with nothing but empty horizons in the distance, drifting aimlessly, completely unable to concentrate on anything for very long. I feel like I've ( Read more... )

I have absolutely no idea where the days go.


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I had a dream where I was completely unable to stand. I couldn't understand what had happened and hoped nobody noticed. Nobody did. (I'm not sure it was a dream.)


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For the past couple of days I've felt like I haven't been getting enough sleep, but I'm pretty sure I'm getting too MUCH sleep. I have no schedule anymore. I've been sleeping really late ( Read more... )

"So. The new job. I'm not sure what I think yet. Unfortunately, I came on board at the worst possible time -- a MAJOR deadline is approaching this weekend and there is a mad scramble to get stuff done. I've been thrown in with virtually no training and very little concrete idea of what is expected of me. I have no idea if I'm doing a good job or a ( Read more... )