My change in lifestyle, accept it or dont.... but hold me back you will no longer do,

This is my journal. This is where my thoughts are written down and shall not be repeated to anybody if i dont want them to.

I was careless in the past with my mouth always running on about stuff i shouldnt have spread, writing things down that i leave for ( Read more... )

today is interesting.

that is my life's fav. word recently.  I can not believe the events that have come across my life recently.  i will not spare any details... however, that is who i am nowadays. a book of secrets.  not easily opened quite like i used to be.  I have walls, and gates, and long long labrynths of dead ends and obstacles.  Everyone ( Read more... )

 hey everyone. im at my friend scott's computer.   I just want everyone to know my computer crashed the other day. I had to install windows ME on it.  I still get internet but the graphics card and sound card and all the other drivers in my computer were designed to work only for xp or above, so everything isnt working properly.  cant see pics, ( Read more... )

This past weekend, was amazing!!!   from thursday - yesterday.  Party at ofir's...  which was a lot of fun.  i wont get into details, but it was an interesting night to say the least.  Friday, i saw the play and... what else did i do?  i cant remember!!!  damn my brain... friday night... o yea! i worked. aughhhh.  haha.  after that, i hung with ( Read more... )

I have no time right now to write as much as I want to, so i will just say this for now:

FUCK PARADES!!!!
cops...
traffic...
people...
feelings...
expectations... 
hopes...

 
Yo. Im doin this on NADia’s awesome Gateway computer, that is not Ashelii’s dan!!! This is the version before Ash’s. Anywho, windows vista is interesting; I like it, but I still need to get used to it.

I cant wait to get my new laptop from Harry. But I cant get it until I get my refund check, which I have a funny feeling I wont be getting until ( Read more... )

Why do i do this to myself?  Why do i always fall into a state of mind where i dont want to do anything?  Like yesterday,  I woke up at about 10ish...  stayed in bed till 3.  why?  didnt feel like doing anything i was suppossed to do!  depressed, thinking to myself why does nothing i want ever work out... is it me?  do i do this to myself? do i 1) ( Read more... )

hey.  so the past few days have been very interesting.  I have thougth a lot about different things.  i have thought about, friendships, relationships, love, sex, life, death...  a lot of different things have come to my mind.

if u want a recap on some of it, go to myspace.  i wrote a blog just before this.

I realized something.   There are a few ( Read more... )

Why is it going to be hard?  hmm? idk why anymore.  why do i care?  im sick of caring.  im sick of feeling ( Read more... )

if anybody reads this, then thats awesome.  b/c i need to say somethijg.  idk what im feeling inside right now.  im so stressed and worried about school. not to mention dreading the end of the year when my friends are leavin for good.  i wont be able to hang out with them to all hrs of the night like i always did.  i wont be able to talk with them ( Read more... )