This is weird, but I know a lot of you have been around since the beginning, and maybe one or two were even on my old accounts. Anyway, I have zero memory of how I really became a Christian, why I gave up being gay, and how I got caught up in that crazy fundamentalist crap I was in for the period of my life. If any of you have any memories of how ( Read more... )

When I was on the verge of suicide, and when I was in an abusive relationship, no one gave a shit. No one was there when I needed them. No one acknowledged either of these events that were going on. My birthday is also barely acknowledged. Yet, when I do something my family doesn't agree with, they are quick to give me their thoughts and curse and ( Read more... )

I got a myspace in 2003 and a facebook in 2006. I remember when the Internet was a place to chat with a few close friends and your Internet friends. Now I can't say shit without a bunch of people giving me hell about it because everyone in "real life" reads it and judges you. I have abandoned my poor lj when it's my only place I can come and be ( Read more... )

Around 2005 I began taking birth control for my acne. It made me really sick and bloated, and I developed a bad bacterial infection in my cervix. In 2007, I had tried numerous meds and had tried different doctors and nothing worked. I had an ultrasound to make sure it hadn't spread and everything looked good. I have been on and off meds and nothing ( Read more... )

Man. I'm pissed that I can't find a job. I have been getting out more though and hanging out with new people... that's a major blessing. But I know it will be SO freaking hard to get into the swing of work when I have been out of it for so long. It sucks because I have no idea what I want to do with my life and everyone stressed me the hell out by ( Read more... )

Hi lj peeps. I never update here because I'm so busy with facebook, twitter, and other random crap I don't need. I'm very poor at the moment, and I have applied to eight jobs so far. I have decided to make the big leap and move out of my parents house and into the "city". It will be about 45 mins from where I am currently living. I'm hoping it will ( Read more... )

Well, I'm still on the job hunt. Nothing has come up yet. I've been kinda bummed because I look back on how my life used to be, and I was so happy. I loved life and made people laugh and now I am some person that I don't know. It just sucks. And I know it has to do with my spiritual life, but I don't know how to get back to the person I was. I have ( Read more... )

Growing up, my life was hell when it came to friendships. Someone has always been out to get me and destroy my life. I has so many panic attacks and missed so much school because of it. It wasn't until my 10th grade year that I started making real friends. I think that's' one of the reason I got so caught up in the gay community... for friendship, ( Read more... )

I need a job, but I would rather kill myself than have a job I'm miserable at.

Fuck my life right now. I am so sick of the bullshit. I had my life together. I was happy and fulfilled. I graduated college and had plans, passions, and dreams, and now I have nothing going for me. I am so miserable and discouraged. I don't know if I should try to get a retail job and move to the city, or if I should find some crap to do around ( Read more... )