Breathe, just breathe......

Will left me tonight. he took the ring off my finger and walked out the door. You want to know why? Because i told him i dont believe in hitting a child to discipline them. he said that if jaden lived with him then he would have to hit him. that is just the way it would be. So i told him that if he ever layed a finger on my son in any way other ( Read more... )

Alright so here is the update. i had my tilt test today and failed it mizerably, i dident even make it to the beginning of the test, i actually passed out before they even started it! well to make a long story short i for sure have Neurocardiogenic Syncope, but i also have this thing called Vaso-Vagal. Basically everyone has these sensors in the ( Read more... )

So i have one more thing to add to my list of how much of a piece of shit i truly am. Its not enough to have asthma and never be able to breath and it really isnt enough to not be able to see most of the time and have to get crazy treatments that make me horribly sick oh and have i mentioned that my freakin blod doesnt clot!! cant forget that one! ( Read more... )

Ok so here is whats going on. I havent been to work all week cause my little man is very sick. he has been in and out of the hospital all week and i litterly have not slept but maybe an hour since sunday. but i think he is starting to get a pinch better i hope! My poor baby! :( on a happier note, the first of the month Will and I and Jaden of ( Read more... )

Do you have any idea how good it feels to know i am never gonna feel lonley again! I am soooo happy! this picture does my ring no justice! God i love him!!!
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this is for anybody who has been in love.... if you havent seen the movie THE NOTEBOOK you have to go rent it right now! trut me it will hurt alot to watch it if you have loved and lost but it needs to be seen. you will understant why after you you have watched it. as for the friends part of my entry, some people go through a phase where they are ( Read more... )

I went and saw The Devils Rejects last night! It was soooo goood! I Have a new Favorite movie!!! But i cant help but think that i may be a little insane or sumthin cause i almost cryed when they were getting all beat and hurt. Does that mean im weird cause i wanted the Physchco killers to live cause i like them so much? owell! God i love that ( Read more... )

Jasons 2 year anniversery was on wednesday. i went with his mom, dad, sister and brother-in-law to the cemetary. i feel like it was just yesterday that we were there for his funeral. i miss him so much.