i just woke up from a dream and tom was in it. i dont remember much but i like went out of my way to chill with him and some girls called him to buy them liquor so i went with him and it turned into us chillen all night and so i was worried that my mom was going to be pissed but instead of going home i like went to help larae set up a mini sale of ( Read more... )

iv been rereading a little bit of this journal and it made me so full of emotion i felt i had to post. the bliss that was in my heart a year ago is gone. i love my life now, and i know i have made healthy decisions since then...but i miss being in love and carefree. i want to find my "parallel" again. and the saddest part, the very worst, heart ( Read more... )

tom is a fucking asshole and i can't believe he is throwing two years of friendship away because he is a bitter, sad, man. he continuously humiliates me and he makes me so mad. we arent even together and yet i still feel horrible. i hate how im on the verge of tears all the time. he isn't hurting, why am i?

fuck you.

I learnt the hard way ( Read more... )

i am not into the idea of living without you...

BREAKING UP SUCKS.

i love np. seriously its amazing. i went home this weekend and i just wanted to be back here, its so weird. its so much easier like having my own room to just come back to and a place where there is always food and shit because last year it was harder. so much is provided for me here as opposed to last year when i had to do everything myself. the ( Read more... )

"Dance With The Devil ( Read more... )

loves being cheated on

so im staying in tonight because going out every single night for a week does this thing to me where i dont feel good. i miss tom, i miss my sanity. i love college but i keep forgetting that its not just a vacation its not just camp i live here now for the next 9 or so months andi have to be productive. i want to join a club or something because i ( Read more... )

i love new paltz !