i think i almost forgot i had this thing.

that would have been better, right?

i still dream about you. in bed with the man i live and love with, i dream of you kissing me.

it's disgusting. it's inevitable.

christmas= sushi dinner. the man at the restaurant gave d and i a gift as we were leaving. it was sake cups, porcelain ones, and two small jugs to pour sake into the cups with. how tender. how sweet. except i had TOO much sake last night, and can hardly envision wanting to ever use them ( Read more... )

sometimes i think i believe i am invisible when i wear my iPod and walk around school.

then i notice people staring at me
and realize how loud i am singing.

i am tired of selling shoes and pretending i like it here.
cassi is moving away.
enjoy the last few months of me in california, while you can.

giraffe watch? blue? with yellow giraffes that are reminiscent of rudolph, the abominable reindeer ( Read more... )

and you know what i would really like?

i would love it to not be midnight, and me to not be so unsober. i have to get up tomorrow morning, head to school.

i also would have liked it if you'd stayed the night, and cuddled me HARD. instead of just dropping me off with a peck on the cheek. and now my bed is cold but calling.

19 days from today

(that's October 28th)

come in a costume.

costume, i said.

if you can't afford a full costume, you sad fuck, at least wear a mask.

ring me up. it's a birthday halloween bash of a lifetime.

(evil screechy noises not installed yet. have to use the imagination)

(and it was four a.m. and i was walking down the streets of rural sebastopol ( Read more... )

i guess one day i'll remember, and i won't expect it to be different ( Read more... )

a friend i think is wonderful just left ( Read more... )

...and i like the way
the projections reflect
on the black and white tiles
of my art history class.

i think we might be meant for each other.
our dreams match up like chinese finger traps.
i want to go to the taj mahal.
i want to hold your hand and stare.