Once Upon a Time...

[peepscallmetoff]

I had a driver named Manong Nelson. He was the best driver I ever had, and the only driver I could actually start a conversation with. He knew all my friends, where they lived, and how to get there. And he was friends with all of them. And he saw Cam and I from the time I just liked her 'til we got together. But things started to change. The gas

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[celeni]

This is rather a very angsty entry that I feel that nothing I say would even make a dent on the general sentimentality, but for all it's worth, here it goes.

You don't choose life you live, rather, you are forced to live out. What you can choose however, is the way you continue living that life when plagued with situations that seem to disrupt "normality." When there seems to be life shattering events, you actually get a humanist and reality check of what has been your life. And then you can identify what was genuinely happy and genuinely well... uh... life.

Even if you feel like you'll never be the same, bear in mind that these people weren't fired (literally or figuratively) for nothing. They walked into your life for a reason, and you should continue to live out their legacy in this semi-charmed kind of life. God bless.

[_chloedancer]

Hey Toff, you're right, no one can fully understand what you're going through, what you have to put up with, and the extent of your loss.

But consider that your strength, your being able to grit your teeth each day inspires a lot of us. Please realize that I'm sure that you've made a difference in people's lives -- especially from all the stuff you do for everyone. And take it from me, it has been a pleasure knowing you. There's still the little things. :(

I actually don't know what to say. You have every right to feel this way and I guess the last thing you need is someone to preach to you that "you'll be all right", "you should aspire to move on" yada yada yada...

Although remember this, you won't be alone.

[happysad_girl]

remember our little trip to horny devil and our visit to somone's mother?...I know what I lost is nothing compared to what you lost, but I share your grief. I know that noone can fully understand what you feel...but I do know how it feels to be lost and as if life will never be happy.I felt like I lost everything suddenly in one fell swoop...but I promise you tope..things will get better..it just takes a lot of mind over matter battles and prayers, and being with supportive friends...i love you tope! k lang yan ok? smile tope..=)

[nikawl]

hey toff.. you are never alone. please so remember that. i do believe that there's always a rainbow after the rain. cliche as it may sound, it's true. i suggest that you lift this all to that one Man that can surely help you. that is, God. c'mon toff, life hasn't ended. your world hasn't stopped. you've got your friends. you've got people reading your lj and commenting. we all care about you. yes, maybe sometimes it's a piss off that you don't get anything in return after tons of helping out and being nice, but should this stop you from doing any good? think about it. :) God's right there! He sees everything you do. He appreciates all your efforts. :) and for that, i'm sure He's very proud of you. take care!

[hannabon]

you don't have to be okay yet, toff. we'll give you all the time you need.

keep praying, ah?
*huuuug*