i want out. i want him gone. he's not the same man anymore. he is not strong.

this sucks.

once again life has left me bewildered and wounded. and if it weren't for jonathan i'd of been on a plane 24 hours ago and scrambled together a scheme to get to little rock. his love is what holds me together and keeps me from loosing hope or letting go of my dreams.

the signs are everywhere. i have a good feeling about this. all those other thoughts of doubt and pipe dreams are but a distant memory.

5 planes in less than a week. its good to have my feet on the ground, even if its the smallest piece of ground i've ever stood on.

i can do this.

i'm working a job i can't really stand. for the first time in two years i can't say there is anything fulfilling about my job. it's putting the pizza in the oven and taking the money. it only gets complicated when the drunk people can't make up their mind. at least they never complain about the prices and usually will let you get away with being ( Read more... )

i just looked at amtrak tickets.

my heart almost stopped beating.

shit has hit the fan and things are going to happen a lot quicker than i had anticipated.

hold on tight.

recently an old friend of mine, who at the time was more or less someone i had a crush on when i first moved to san francisco, contacted me on myspace. much more than the typical 'oh hi, how's life' bullshit, our correspondences have been pretty heartfelt and in genuine sincerity and interest for one another's well being. it doesn't sound like its ( Read more... )

i've tried to be as true to myself as possible. i knew that when i joined the band with corey and andy this time last year, that it would be the last band i ever play in. today i sold my bass, and will probably sell my amp tomorrow. now the thought of selling my acoustic guitar has been creeping up in the back of my mind. i will need a few more ( Read more... )

i am so sick of all your bullshit. honestly, what gives you the right to be so high and mighty? making a blanket statement like 'all straight girls are stupid' is just as ignorant as saying 'all lesbians are mean ( Read more... )