I want so badly for you to be there. I have so much to tell you mama ki, I want to let you in under my skin to see all that God has been doing in me. I feel like the woman at that well who went away after meeting Jesus and said that she just met a man who told her everything she had ever done. He knows me Mama Ki and he loves me. He knows me by ( Read more... )

so why am I violent towards men in my dreams? Is my subconscious trying to tell me something. I am angry with men? Well really its only the black men I seem to fight with. I dunno. I have a dream last night that this black guy stole my purse and he and his firend chased me down and in the meantime I had thrown wracks full of clothes at them and ( Read more... )

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Please God give me self control. Please dont let me feed my fancy. Give me discernment to know the difference between what I want and what I need, what I intend and what you purpose for me. Its so hard soemtimes to stay pure. when everything about the flesh seems so sweet because you created it good. But I know this is not my time yet so help me to ( Read more... )

Maxwell This Woman's Work lyrics ( Read more... )

"Dark and Tire," .... "Sleep not"

4 hrs of shut in 2 days is not enough for adult female of the human species.

All systems down.........*ABORT* ..... *ABORT* ..... *beeeeeep* .....*beeeeep*..
....*beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppp*.

My bones are tired if for no other reason than that they need love. I need a pair of strong hands to iron out the creases in my back. How can I wear my skin with pride when you can see the creases from where it was folded at the seams ( Read more... )

Today you are my favourite flower in God's peopled garden. Your colours draw me to you and once I am close to you I am captivated by the luxuriant odour of your thoughts. They smell like home cooked love and fruits of the spirit. I want to grow on the same vine as you. Today you are my favourite colour of the rainbow. You are my favourite colour ( Read more... )

Today I felt like a human bee at the job fair. All those bustling humans breathing on each others necks in lines waiting for opportunity. Even if we were bees we coudn't have been able to sprea our wings in there. So crowded? I had hoped I would see "him" but I guess "he" must have come and gone before the buzz got too bizzy. I miss him somehow. ( Read more... )

I wish you would look at me. I wanted to ask you what the matter was tonight when you left. My heart needed to know if your haste was just urgency or if it was anxiety. Our eyes didn't meet for long enough for me to tell. I want to hold you in my gaze and search you. I wan to search you and find myself in you. I want to know if you could be "the ( Read more... )