SO, yeah.... Thanks to everyone who wished me luck, but I'm sad to say it wasn't enough. I didn't even get to talk to her. I'll just stick the luck in reserve for when I do. In the meantime, just keep wishing, I obviously need it.
Ignore that last post. A friend of mine talked some sense into me. Got that straightened out. Sorta, I think. Anyway, there is hope again, and that's always good but, I'm assuming there was hope in the first place.
I'm pretty sure that I was too slow, I lost my chance. Almost nonoe know what I'm talking about, if any at all but, that's ok, you don't really need to. No one has to know. I was a coward and i was stupid, that's all that matters.
Every time I think something might actually go my way, life slaps me in the face, every time I have hope, it's broken by something. Some have asked why I keep trying. I honestly don't always know. Sometimes I think that I just can't give up. I dunno, my personality prevents me from giving up.