So, that idea didn't exactly work. She also doesn't really want to do the long distance thing either. She say's she's done it before and didn't like it. I told her that I would have a car and would visit her in BR at least once a week. The most I got out of her is "We'll see." I dunno. I really like her, and I don't wanna give up, but this is

OK, so I don't update often..... Well, maybe that's an understatement. I haven't updated in about 3 months. Lots has happened. Got back together with Erica, broke up with Erica. Found another girl who I like a lot. Went for a walk in the park with her, kissed her. Two days later she tells me that we won't work. Its too wierd because we work ( Read more... )

boredom....

So, I'm sitting at a friend's house waiting for him to get out of the shower. I decided that I'll update my journal. Not much has been going on in my life lately. I've been working a lot lately. Thank you Academy for sucking my life into your abyss. I've also been kinda sorta, half ass been trying to get back into the dating game. Sad part is ( Read more... )

So what if I haven't updated in a while, that's because nothing of particular interest is happening to me right now. I've been working a lot. Got my dick of a roommate evicted (pretty funny story, I might hav to post it sometime), got a new roommate, fighting with Erica (the other roommate). I don't really know why, but we've been butting heads ( Read more... )

So I find myself sitting and wondering, "What am I gonna do next?" Not really in reference to anything in particular, just in life in general. I also find myself still wondering who made that anonymous comment a couple posts back. I dunno why, but I wanna know who it is. Anyway, got a new job at Academy at the footwear dept. I like it.

I find myself back where I was almost 8 months ago, emotionally at least. For some reason, part of me still hopes. I can't for the life of me figure out why or how to get rid of it. I'm tired of feeling like this. It would hurt so much less if the hope would go away ( Read more... )

I hate being right, I really do. It hardly gives any satisfaction. I finally got to talk to her. I told her. I even gave her the letter I wrote as backup so she could get everything in detail. I even sent her an e-mail after she left because I realized that I had forgotten a couple of things. The outcome was as I predicted though. Just like ( Read more... )

Everytime I think I might I have found water it turns out to be a mirage. I want it to be wrong, I want things to stay the way they are. I don't want to lose a friend.

Well, not much going on, not anything really. Only my same internal struggles. Read something that almost made me cry today. It was entitled "Nice Guys Finish Last." It just summed up how I feel pretty well. I'm sure we've all been in a situation where it hurt to be reminded of how we feel. Sometimes it's seems better when we are ignoring it ( Read more... )