~Trent and I are finishing the song today... yay... i can't wait to hear the finished product... and yea... trent... I want trent... trent wants me... whats the problem? a little thing called loose ends... with an ex... fuck... im trying i really am trying to get over this girl... i know she has no intrest in me whatsoever... I know that she'll ( Read more... )

~so ive been busting my ass every night from 8pm - 4:30am this week for $6.05 ... yea.... guess ya gotta start somewhere when you've got nothing... YAY for Mc Donald's ( Read more... )

~Trent is now working with me on the project, and we've got about 1/4 of one degree written and recorded... i know I'm a little partial to my music, but seriously... its enough to blow away everyone else in this area... no one... absolutely no one is doing this stuff around here. I can't wait to get this song done and fuckin toss it in my parents ( Read more... )

~Swallowing your pride seems to be the hardest thing to do for me, so stubborn and self-reightous. I try though, and I'm getting better about it. It's all a part of me humbling myself to something greater than myself. I keep asking myself if this is my will or if its god's will. And its definitely my will in my desires to be back with her, but its ( Read more... )

~so i saw maynard tonight. Im so grateful for my higher power, placing people and events in my life right when i need them. I can't say much about the show... the emotions just arent able to be confined to words... I did give Josh, the drummer for APC, a copy of my "demo" and told him it was completely unfinished but i'd really appreciate it if he ( Read more... )

~Alright so i need to break a couple things out... and i know its gonna piss some people off, but fuck it, i need to get this shit off my chest, cause it's litterally killing me. so here goes ( Read more... )

~i just want to thank everyone thats been helping me through this... like it hasnt even been a whole day and already people are showing concern... <3 thank you all <3 ( Read more... )

~its done, its over... i said my last goodbye to niki tonight. Fuck this disease... fuck it fuck it... damn fuckin part of me just made me loose the best part of me for the rest of my life... as soon as i got off the phone with her, all i could think of was bashing my forehead in with that headset... i know im growing tho, cause i put it down and ( Read more... )

heh, how could i forget the serenity prayer at a time like this???

~"God, grant me the serenity, to accept the things i cannot change, The courage to change the things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Just for today."~

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~so yea... ive come to expect that when its smooth sailing start preparing for the storm, cause they're gonna come... well niki told me she's still got feelings for me... and this after ive pretty much decided that i want to be with roxie however i've got to.... and now i just dont know what to do... niki's still confused... roxie wants me to come ( Read more... )