Aparrently I have not written in this journal half as much as my deadjournal and since I just wrote in there I feel compelled to write in here. I have had my deadjournal now for about 10yrs (will be 10yrs in March) and have written quite a bit. Some years more more than othersm I always saw my journal as a release, and since I have no friends to ( Read more... )

What can i say at this point. I dont know ( Read more... )

Still searching for that one piece of my mismatched puzzle..
One last piece that seems harder and harder to find..

I dont remember what it looks like..
what I recollect is all faded-memories all worn..
and yet I dont recall ever truely having it,..

I went on my break today and sat in my car because the bench outside the store was occupied. I got into my car clicked on the radio and lit up a smoke.. the music on the radio played and of course reminded me of someone. And made me feel and yearn for them again. Now.. this tends to happen from time to time and I wonder why it is I end up feeling ( Read more... )

So, currently.. I have my younger sister here with me, who the deal was to stay here for two months work enough (2 jobs) to get a place of her own.. so she quits her one and only job today. So contract is null and void.. but yet she goes out and expects that she can go put in applications and go home to wv this weekend and come back.. but it does ( Read more... )

Well.. a new month in a new year. But its still winter. On myspace I had written 2008 in retrospect read it HERE not much of anything just a ramble of nothing really. Today started out like any other.., my mood waning though with comments from my s.o. he can really ruin my day.. but whatever.. that is to be expected. Today I have started on some ( Read more... )

...the time has come once again to write something here in my journal. the past two years have proven fruitful yet my journal has nothing to prove. I would like to say that I will keep up with this but... honestly folks.. who knows if I will.

Things in my life thus far have been just fine. I started a job last month and have only been officially ( Read more... )

I had a conversation the other day with a good friend of mine, who I had gone to high school with and dated as well. He was telling me unfortunatly how over the years he had turned into a cutter due to the mistreatment of himself by others.. specifically of the female type ( Read more... )

Today I am just feelin kind of blah. We drank some rum last night, and we both woke up feeling pretty good. The day went on as normal, but he left to go visit his mother at the hospital, and my mood has becoming more and more fowl. And it is truly unfortunate. He was gone for a long time which annoyed me... but its his mom.. so what can I say ( Read more... )

You know. I wish I could be like I was. Not have the issues, worries, and paranoias I now do. I used to be laid back, calm and cool... and for years now that has gone down the shitter. I just cannot allow myself to be that way anymore.. dont know why, its an incapability, aparently. A Handicap ( Read more... )