you're not the first to do this to me
but for whatever reason, it's never been this painful.

why am i always the one to get left behind?
really, what makes it so easy for people to do that?

one day i'll be worth it to someone?
it sounds so ridiculous, but i can't find another explanation.

FFFFFFFFFUCK YOU.

fuckyoufuckyoufuckyou.

no more common courtesy.
no more polite civilites.

FUCK. YOU.

I fucken hate you.

do you believe in fate ( Read more... )

i'm not quite sure what i did/am doing wrong

i'm missing something

help me out.

I'm hoping
sincerely
that pretty soon
i won't need this thing anymore.

tomorrow i go back to fred finally
i wanted one thing this break
and i got it and more
now i'm ready to restart

bring it on spring semester. 

We were talking yesterday about change and growth and I've been thinking a lot about it today.  I'm thinking about what ways I've really felt like I've changed and is it for the good or the bad ( Read more... )

mm.
i don't deal well with uncertainties.
never did, never will.

i just need some sort of concrete piece of knowledge to go on.

sometimes i'm more trouble than i'm worth.

i really need this thanksgiving break ( Read more... )

You know,

Sometimes being spontaneous,
slightly irresponsible,
and only thinking in the moment...

...is just FUN.

Two more students from my high school died in a car accident today.  I saw the headline "Two teens die in fatal Smithtown crash" and I felt my heart skip a beat.  This shouldn't keep happening ( Read more... )