this is gonna sound really weird ( Read more... )

i'm lonely

that's what it is.

i just don't have that connection to anyone

i am connected to people.

but not on that emotional

complete trust.

say anything

feel anything.

understanding

i do wish to be understood.

i am cliche

so still no job ( Read more... )

let's see....

( there's a lot to write )

i have been doing some thinking....and let me preface by saying that my outlook on life--though still grim--is turning into something beautiful and i couldnt be happier. the flowers seem brighter--nature seems more vibrant... as if it's trying to tell me something.. whisper words through wind in my ear, flow ideas over my body with water...i can ( Read more... )

so much has happened to me, since i have updated....mostly emotional--nothing too physical ( Read more... )

so i was working out today and i do some of my best thinking at the gym.... and i came to the conclusion i am selfish and a horrible person--moreover a horrible son ( Read more... )

i have half a mind to leave forever and start over.

.i have half a mind.

i dont know why i am writing here ( Read more... )

so i wanted to come on here and just type away about horrid my life is at the moment... but it isnt. haha ( Read more... )