i was right... his feelings were for his ex.

celebrating my independence?

ugh, fine universe, i get it...i'm not right for this

i started "seeing" this guy brett. things are going well...i am trying my hardest not to self sabotage. trying ( Read more... )

JLTF-1==>JLTF==>A&E

when is it my turn?

i haven't seen myself in days.. like i srsly haven't looked in a mirror in a long time... and i know that sounds stupid or ridiculous but really the only time i look at myself in a mirror is when i am brushing my teeth...and recently i walk around the apt when i brush...so no looking..not even to dress ( Read more... )

i've been spending the weekends alone. for almost a month now. friday-sun...no showering. no leaving. nothing.

i had those feelings that he wasn't in to me because they were true.

universe giving me a gift=0, karl's instincts are correct even though it is the complete opposite of what he wanted = 3824729384893752347593850235982345982375923475923475934534750923475

this is getting old.

i give up.

so i had a great date with this guy last night...even a bit of a make out afterwards ( Read more... )

i constantly take on many projects in my life to push out what i most want and am too stupid to admit.

i feel like not waking up tomorrow.

living in the city is great and i have met some great people that i call close friends ( Read more... )

i get emotionally unstable when i spend the entire day alone.

like today