this will be deleted tonite when i get on. add cuddlemonkey if you havent already... and want to. bai bai

went to my grandmas wake tonite. i only cried a lil bit... and it was cuz of some stuff my grandpa said. it was more of a release... not a sad cry. most of the time we were laughing bout the past... about the good times with grandma. i love her but i gotta let go. buh bye grandma. <3

mmk so i added all the friends i had on here to my other journal (cuddlemonkey) and i only have like 17 friends on there.... i have 44 added! punks get to adding or else tell me you dont want me as a friend anymore. =) okies? this journal will prob be deleted by friday. so yeah.

well the reality totally sunk in today... i totally broke down. i guess it jus finally hit me... grandma is gone... forever. the funeral is thursday. i prob wont be online much for the next week cuz my bro is here in town and staying with my father and me. all plans that i had are as of now cancelled ( Read more... )

shove a fuckin fat stick up my ass hard

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my grandma died today.... this is the first family death i have ever had to deal with... shit the only death ive had to deal with that was close to me... how do i get through this? =( im goin to bed

whatever

amuse me... come on! you know you want to! i will love you forever =)

http://www.stumpyourfriends.com/stump2.cgi?5.482813562002

ya know what i was jus thinkin... i hate love.... i mean it can be great but in the end everyone jus gets hurt.... so yeah that is my great analogy of the year or something.

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY! ITS INDEPENDENCE DAY! *tries to act patriotic*