something hit me really hard this week. i mean it hit me really really hard. it scared the hell out of me. well, about six months ago, my grandmother was diagnosed with a blood diesese that prevents her from making any new blood cells. the doctors said that if she did this dialysis thing every two days, she would live up to 6 months. she decided to ( Read more... )

i have been in such a weird funk lately. i havent hung out with anyone in about 3 weeks, and i am sleeping all the time. i cant help it. i sleep through all the classes i can, and then when i get home, i sleep till morning comes. i dont know whats wrong with me, maybe im growing again. i just got a physical and i am exactly 6 foot five, and i weigh ( Read more... )

this weekend was an interesting one to say the least. i did absolutley nothing except play hockey and work. well today i went to a pumpkin patch with my fam, but thats a different story. the thing is, i was happy with what i did. not that i wouldnt be happy doing things with my friends, but when i am playing hockey there is no better feeling in the ( Read more... )

free falling ( Read more... )

dude, this weekend had its ups and downs, but the worst part about it was i didnt get to see any of my friends. at all. i was out of town friday night, and then on saturday night, i got in a fight with my mom, so i was grounded. i have no time for mistake anymore.

"please dont go on me, dont go on me now, never done it before dont go on me now, i swear i never took it for granted just thought of it now, suppose i abused you"-pearl jam ( Read more... )

Adrenaline ( Read more... )

im on a roll here ( Read more... )

Being unconscious and in the state that I was in, I had the most magnificent dream. But was it a dream? It was if as I was walking along Highway One, along the absolutely astonishing coast of California. Once again I could see everything, I could see a man and a woman cuddling on the beach below. I could see the pebble that was holding three tons ( Read more... )

So I left. Right then and there. I viscously stabbed the table with the fork that I held in my hand. I stood up the quickest I had ever stood before, yanking my place-mat off the table. It took all the might in the world to walk out that door, to walk out on my most beloved possession anywhere. Once I was outside, I could see everything. It was as ( Read more... )