Yesterday didn't happen ( Read more... )

what the hell was I thinking.
beer is good.
If I make it to 40 I'll quit then.

finally. weekend. beer. whiskey. opiates. sleep.

I wish I would get serious withdrawals for fucking once. But naw, a little muscle pain, some nausea, some stomach cramps, my heart's beating a little too fast and hell yeah, I couldn't sleep all night but that's basically it. I should probably be happy about this, but I'm not, cause it makes me ask "why again am I doing this ( Read more... )

It's kinda funny but all the pain recently helps me to focus ... OK, focus on the pain actually but that's definitely better than mentally hunting your tail 24/7 ... and it makes it easier not to drink, since I'm floating in fluffy puffy painkiller dreamland most of the time ( Read more... )

I got tagged by Callisto24, so here we go (I won't tag anyone myself, cause actually that doesn't make much sense ;))

So here's the 7 songs I like to listen to the most at the moment:

Snoop Dogg - Vato
Rocco DeLuca - Daybreaker
Linkin Park with Jay-Z - Numb
David Gray - Coming Down
Joe Henry - Sold
Snow Patrol - Run
Arctic Monkeys - Riot Van

I had another of this stupid ideas bout sobering up - but the whole idea of getting sober is so wrong, the solution is DRINK MORE, CRASH FUCKING HARDER. I rather go out in a bang than fucking fade away. I trust me to kill me.

Vacation! I will be going to the beach for a week on Saturday. It's gonna be cold and windy but who cares, I really need to get away from all the bullcrap here and need some time to think. And since this is on invitation of my parents, this is gonna be a healthy week. Imagine! Food! Real Food! Like 3 or 4 times a day! No Pills'n Booze! Just a ( Read more... )

Eh, whatever ;)
Vodka fucking rocks.

I'm so bored. Work is a drag today and I keep staring at the clock ... 2 more hours to go, which means I will have to wait two more fucking hours for my first beer of the day, fuck. Man, this job really sucks, you're either rolling in a raging heart attack causing frenzy for 12 to 16 hours a day OR you get blisters on your ass from sitting around ( Read more... )