July 29th, 11:29 pm easten standard time. From here on in we shoot without a script. See if anything comes of it instead of my old shit.

First shot Jessica, sitting on the living room couch.

I have been such a busy bee these past few weeks. I spend almost every day with Gavin<3 and when I am not with him, I am studying. Last week Gavin McGavers, ( Read more... )

Well hello out there in live journal land. I think it is well enough time for an update on my life. Here I sit before you, 3 months sober. By sober of course I am refering to my long time (6 years) addiction to Matture. I have been Matture free for a while now and I am doing great. I have not, however, been Matt free. It seems like I cannot avoid ( Read more... )

I confuse myself. Have you ever been in a situation where you fight yourself on what you want? I think its the strangest thing when my heart and head are not on the same page as far as how I am feeling. I dont know if I want to cry, or if I feel relieved. I am annoyed with mysef, but at the same time proud that I am being honest. Gurr. I am going ( Read more... )

I have no recollection of making the post direcly before this one.....scary. But the effects from sleeping aids are long gone now and somehow I am still tired! I will go have a green tea.
Goodday

I took a sleeping pill last night because at 4:30 i was still wiredly wide awake. I couldn't stop my head from swirling around thoughts and keeping me up. It was almost 5. I didnt want to think...I WANTED TO SLEEP. So i went downstairs and had some of the soup my mom brought me home for dinner..take the pill, and within the hour im fast asleep. I ( Read more... )

I will post more of the sights we saw later. Right now these are just some of me in NYC. I will update about the trip later.

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The following is an excerpt from a conversation with my father. There is nothing unusual or out of place about this conversation. He realy is just a nut. I think this helps to shed some light on the reasons I am as silly as I am ( Read more... )

I dunno if Ive mentioned this recently but I have come to freakin love Japan. I have finally made freinds(Japanese) and I seem to always be busy. It is strange how I lived here for a year and never felt at home until recently. I have two best friends..Akie and Tomomi, we all work at amity..so they speak english..plus my japanese grows stronger ( Read more... )

Leonad William Angel Cortez Levine. My first baby, my big boy died ( Read more... )

I have a heavy heart today.