taking things day by day makes me the happiest person alive. for once, i'm living in the moment...not getting ahead of myself, not living in the past (just resenting nate, thats all)

and everything is the way i want it to be.

happppy.

its wonderful how he instilled this light into me:

life is too important to be taken so seriously i look at him in admiration...for his humor, his sensitivity, and genuine honesty. i've never had someone make me feel so happy about the simplicity of nothingness. simple bliss with a side of laughter. it's almost too good to be true ( Read more... )

its weird....so many kids from this town have died too early in life. it just doesn't make any sense.

on another note, whats up with the pregnancy trend in this town? heesh..

i'm so lost right now that i don't even know where to start putting things in perspective.

i think i got too wrapped up in the moment to really understand the big picture. my mind was moving too fast, caught up in a fairy tale dreamland that doesn't exist. i can't play pretend anymore, and i refuse to be pulled under.

now is not the right time for this to beon another note, i have been treating my body horribly since the new year ( Read more... )

i want to feel 100% better already. my ears hurt wicked bad, and i want salsa...damnit.

i never would have believed you when you told me that i would fall in love again...if it weren't for the fact that i found the truth in my long-lasting search for what you never gave me.

what my entire body feels right now is so much more real than the teaspoon of medicinal lies you fed me daily, like clockwork. what i feel now is truely ( Read more... )

i got my tonsils out yesterday. i woke up crying my eyes out & in terrible pain calling out "mommy". she came in and held my hand, and i fell back off to sleep. i was doin so well at the hospital that they let me go early. i did, however, almost passed out when i went pee at the hospital. nate called me when i was on my way home....i dont know ( Read more... )

went boarding up in vermont yesterday....i'm sore as shit. had an awesome time with brescia, ryan, mike and brian. came back last night, partied it up...passed out.

happy new year.