Holy crap!! The last few months have been crazy!!! In july I attempted suicide drank a half gallon jug of bug spray. In june I got a DWU wrecked my car ran over my leg went and then went to jail for 15 days!!

what the fuck am I thinking!!! My drinking to much in one night has gotten out of hand, so I'm done I can't be like this enough is enough!! I have lost so many kick ass friends because of this I've even lost one of the most amazing women I've ever met and I don't know if it can be fixed. What is a matter with me I'm so pissed at myself what the

Well this is my last entry. I'm going to delete my journal I'm just not on here enough. I'm so busy I've started donating plasma 2 nights a week. I don't spend as much time in the bar as I used to I've dropped those friends and have surrounded myself around folks that don't go out much. I have another job and have been seeing someone and still ( Read more... )

So, I thought I would jump on here and share a thought. One of friends was hurt yesterday her 4 wheeler rolled on top of her. Thank god she wasn't hurt bad or killed She's just really sore. Tonight I just wanted to take her something. I feel so bad!! So I took her some candy a pay day cause she's going to need money, a Rolo sense it rolled on ( Read more... )

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Hmmm... I've thinking about my friends lately. They are all so different we've never lied to each other, we don't fight, we hang and have good times. I'm thiking about this lately because of the people I used to hang out with. They are odd ducks they lie to each other, and play games with in themselves. I really didn't see this until now. I was ( Read more... )

I have got to do some venting and this is the place i'm choosing to do it so here it goes ( Read more... )

Wow, what a night I had last night! I went to my girls Mike and Leroy's new pad last night to check it out not really expecting to go out. I wasn't dressed for going out at all I just went out to have a few drinks and good conversation with the girls. I wasn't even looking to meet anyone and it turns out i did. It was crazy I watched this really ( Read more... )

I want this women back so bad! I have never cared for someone so much!! my heart is broke!!

Life is shit right now! The gf broke it off with me she said, she needed some space, and that she is not giving up on us she just needed sometime. I'm am so hurt this sucks! On top of all that I was hurt by something else i can't say what it is, it's to painful for me to even talk about right now. I go to counsling next week. I can't get ( Read more... )