*I swear I do not do things to intentionally hurt/piss people off.
*I know I can be a bitch but seriously... people are so frustrating!

This weekend is going to be crazy! Fucking graduation and shit. We went out last night... there are things I just need to remember. The first being that when I am drinking around ppl I don't like that much/ that annoy me I become a complete bitch. Second wow.... guys are assholes. I apparently was hitting on a guy w/his gf and he totally was ( Read more... )

I seriously need to start going to more concerts! I had so much fucking fun yesterday! It was bitter sweet though because Joss is moving back to LA next weekend :(. The bands I was excited to see were: Shiny Toy Guns, The Bravery, and Queens of the Stone Age. Queens were fucking awesome! The boys came which was fabulous. I'm totally stoked ( Read more... )

Being home is very weird... but it gives me time to think. It comes and goes- sometimes I wonder if there was anything I could have done to prevent it. Sadly I know there isn't. Telling people is kind of awkward... it is the whole social stigma thats got me down. Oddly I've told more people then I originally planned... a lot more- and quite a ( Read more... )

I thought finding out would be worse... in actuality it is the telling others portion. I'm shockingly fine, which suprises the hell outta me.

Have you ever met someone that you hit it off w/right away? I met this guy last weekend at a bar downtown for UFC fights... my friends and his friends all got along great. It was seriously so much fun! I've never met someone and liked them that much so quick! He and his friend came down to visit yesterday and yet again... great time! Sucks ( Read more... )

1) I'm awesome! For various reasons that I will not mention ( Read more... )

I am starting to feel that guys honestly see me as just an object. As much as I love sex... I hate feeling like I'm being used. Honestly... I've been used so much and of course I have this feeling that the guys that I should be with I will never find here in Santa Barbara. Instead of being pessimistic and thinking that all guys are jerks I'm ( Read more... )

I'm pretty much fucked for this quarter. I gave up today in Italian... 10 minutes before my class freaked and went home. I've got a shit load of studying but I work from 3-ll on friday and from 7-7 on Sat and Sun... which means I have tonight and tomorrow to make massive study guides to bring to work. I hate winter quarter!!! I'm just so..... ( Read more... )

You should all be happy to know that I just started birth control which means I have to quit smoking. So yep- bye bye cigs!