So, I was supposed to get married this past weekend. I'm totally fine with that I am not, I am totally fine with my decision to leave, but in retrospect, I keep saying I feel so bad for him. He didn't see it coming, he didn't know anything was wrong.. but really, how do you tell someone you love them for 3 years, not wipe their tears, pick stupid ( Read more... )

The sound of you beneath my skin
 is less of a comfort than the blade under my tongue
The bouquet of calla lilies I caught without fear
 now terrifies me with its red and white ribbon

i can't finish this.

Who knew.

Maybe it's on my horizon
 to fail to see the things that are in front of me
Maybe my naievity got the best of me
  now it's too late to be loved
Who knew the cold outside
  would become what defines what lies inside
Am I not the precious child that no one taught
  not the love-able but the determined

since I've decided to write for me. I have taken so long to commit to what it takes to write something down on paper at the very terrifying thought, that I might have to feel something. What I am coming to realize, is that when you think your life is a mess, and you don't care, that something comes up, and you think you can't handle it and you talk ( Read more... )

How to make a pezcorepixie
Ingredients:

3 parts jealousy

1 part ambition

3 parts leadership
Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of sadness

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

like realizing how much I dont know.. and no this isnt sarcasm.. i spent the weekend workign my arse off and i am sittin gyo at 2 am which i normally dont do anymore often because my clock is all screwd .. i got off work monday at four am and went back at five pm and got off at one am tuesday. today i babysit the kids--but i do get to hopefully see ( Read more... )

stolen from katie ( Read more... )

New Lesson- Martinis suck. ick ( Read more... )

so if I haven't mentioned before, I hate waiting tables.. I hate it. I hate the high school attitudes in restraunts... and I hate the needing to give a crap about how their freaking pancakes are.. cause really I don't care. I'm tired and pissy and I didn't get to go out and have drinks like I wanted which pissed me off more tonight. brad pitt is ( Read more... )

hmmmm... so today I went to A&M with Jess and his parientes for his best friends commenceration into the Airforce, then I went to work and convinced a guy to let me go early. :) rock it hardcore! hmmmm... lets see... so jess fixed my car except the battery light wont go off so I think something bad happened when umm, my sister attatched jumper ( Read more... )