i really don't like the new setup of lj. *shrug* i don't really post here anymore anyway. it is a lot easier to write in my other journal. i'm not really sure why, it just is. i feel like a complete piece of shit sometimes. i have fallen out of contact with a lot of people that i wish i wouldn't have. i was just going through some shit that i ( Read more... )

i think i am growing up a little. there is something inside of me that doesn't really allow myself to write here. i kind of understand it but then again i don't. but things are going good. i am happy. i think that for a really long time i had the oppourtunity to feel this way, i just didn't want to try. now i have, and i am so glad i did. i am ( Read more... )

wow... i am horrible at keeping this thing up. it's been forever. it is hard for me to write here for many reasons..... let's just leave it at that ( Read more... )

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stressful but good day at work. i brought some of my photography in as my talent (we had a mystery talent night for the kids in my program.) i got a lot of compliments and a few offers to buy my work. i really wish i had the time to get back into it. i miss it. such a creative outlet.. *sigh* oh well. things are going alright. i'm going to SF on ( Read more... )

went and saw the blood brothers last night. amazing. went by myself. *shrug* ended sitting by jordan on accident and talking with him for a few hours. it is so wonderful to already adore a band for so many reason and talk to their members and adore them even more. i thought they couldn't get much better, but they did ( Read more... )

i am so different ( Read more... )

i had a wonderful day off. i ended up going to mickie's grove with my sister and monster. we had a lot of fun. we took her to the japanese tea garden where i took a ton of pictures of her. then we took her to the zoo and let her see all the animals. being at the zoo made me sad though. our zoo is super small and the animals have like no room to ( Read more... )

i've worked now for i don't know how many days straight. at least a month, propbably longer. suck. i am super tired and looking very forward to a day off tomorrow. yay. i'm not sure what i am going to do yet. i won't have my computer so i know i won't be wasting the day away by staring at a monitor. maybe i'll go shopping or something. *shrug ( Read more... )

whoo hoo. i went and worked out today for like 2 hours. then after that, i took a shower and worked for 7 1/2 hours. busy busy. and have have to work tomorrow. ugh. superbowl + plus lots of people wanting pizza at the same time = not a fun work day for sam. oh well. i am thinking about things.. my life, my future, where i am going. although it has ( Read more... )