the days when everyone didnt think so negatively about me. including myself. i feel like a huge dissapointment. i dont know why im writing this shit. its stupid, im sure everyone will tell me that, but i feel like all i ever do is make the people around me lives more difficult. i'm sorry to everyone ive let down, everyone ive hurt, continue to hurt ( Read more... )

FUCK THE BULLSHIT.

i dont really know what i want to do. these are just random thoughts of a stoned man. haha, but hopefully i can gain something useful from them..i need to do something. i have been in a rut since school is out, not that this is an entirely bad thing, i am not completely upset i wont be going to school this semester, but thats alright, i can use a ( Read more... )

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im scared. i wish that i could just get over this stuff thats bothering me and not be sad anymore, but im losing someone who means a lot to me, i know she says ill be alright, but i dont see me being nearly as happy as i was with her. ive never felt the way that she makes me feel before, everytime she touches me i feel better, no matter whats wrong ( Read more... )

i dont know how much longer i can do this.

it might be the booze talkin, but i feel good.

i graduated high school. its a big moment in my life, even if im reluctant to admit it. for the first time in the last few weeks i feel like im going to be alright. i know what im going to do, and i seriously have a chance at achieving that. im going to graduate college, though i doubt my major will be psychology. I want less school, i'm not sure i ( Read more... )

i way layin in bed (listenin to eminem haha) but mostly i was thinking about how proud i am of my Brittany, i got up after being almost asleep to write in this to say Im really proud of my Brittany, shes awesome :) she makes me super happy :) :) :)

i wanna hold my Brittany real bad