I was going to write about the nightmare that has been this past week.  I was going to confess my big secret and how it is ruining my life.  I was going to vent all of my frustrations.  But then I realized all it would get me is pity and that's really the last thing I need right now.  What I really need is a friend.

 I haven't written anything here in a while.  I don't really feel comfortable broadcasting what's been going on with me but I also don't want to lie and say everything is ok and I really can't pretend that it isn't on my mind all the time ( Read more... )

Today was Dan's graduation.  It was awful as those things always are but I am excited for him.

Not much going on really.  I've just been spending a lot of time with the Baker kids and my mom.  I'm fairly lonely and depressed and missing Pete so I'm anxious for camp to start and give me a distraction.

It is freezing tonight.

I'm getting totally spoiled this week.  I spent Friday-Monday in Long Island with Pete, partying with his family, enjoying the beach and just generally being thrilled to see him.  This week hasn't been too great but in a few minutes I'm going over to the Bakers to babysit my favorite little cousins.  Then tomorrow Pete is coming here to meet up ( Read more... )

So I'm in Rockland now and except for a short trip (tomorrow-Friday) to move rooms I am going to be for most of the summer.  As of a few weeks ago I was planning to stay in Albany for a few weeks longer but now with my mom being home (and really bored and really lonely and depressed) and with my aunt desperate for a babysitter it just makes sense ( Read more... )

I have to wake up in 7 hours for a final but I can't sleep.

Now it's time to get out of the desert and into the sun...

even if it's alone...

I am completely transparent.

Crazy weekend ( Read more... )

Does it mean more that I resisted temptation or that I was tempted in the first place?