You can't have everything you want , you can try but when you won't take your own advise and none from the people you trust. Well...you get what you pay for and here I am. I can't really tell who's side I'm on, I constantly fight between myself on a daily basis and still turn up with no clue as to what I'm doing. Don't get me wrong being in the ( Read more... )

It's 3 in the morning and I'm sitting here wondering what I do everyday that make sit worth my while to wake up at 5 everyday. And i just figured out that there is no reason, really think about it. I lost someone that I loved dearly not once but twice, I don't do a job that people find crucial like a doctor or something. I've pretty much lost my ( Read more... )

It's been 15 years today since I woke up at the age of 9 to a nightmare I cannot escape. Since then I've tried my best to be the best I can. There have been highs and there have been lows and still I keep pushing on why I don't know. I wished you were here every day for a long time but I knew that it would not be so, I settled that with myself I ( Read more... )

All those sleepless night, All those hunger strikes nothing brings me comfort from myself. I am my own worst enemy and there is no hope great enough to pull me from my fate. I wake in the middle of the night sweating and in tears thinking of what once was, knowing I get the pleasure of my past running through my head and all that I settled inside ( Read more... )

Well I finally Opened a journal ain't you so proud? If Not I don't Give a Shit! I just felt alittle left out , alittle cold and alittle hungry. But I figured I can talk to you peeps more often. Leave me a line...