ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I WROTE ON THIS DAMN THING, LIFE IS DIFFERENT, NEW FRIENDS,DUTY, AND SELF.. FOR MOST I HAVE CHANGED IN WAYS THAT I THOUGHT WOULD BE BETTER, BUT IS WELL DIFFERENT. I MUST SAY THAT MOST WILL NEVER GRASP WHAT IT IS I AM THINKING UNLESS OF COURSE. YOU ARE IN THE MILITARY OR PREVIOUSLY ( Read more... )

so christmas, it was a good time with the family. but there were a few elements missing. but so what, everyone is all talk, and i think that those who make promises never seem to keep them. I know why i go out of my way for some people, I care. and in essence they eventually take my kindness as a weakness, then simply i'll just walk away same thing ( Read more... )

I GUESS I CAN SAY IM LUCKY FOR NOT HAVING ANY DRAMA IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW, BUT AS MUCH AS I WANT TO BE AROUND PEOPLE I JUST CAN'T. I'VE JUST BEEN TAKEN FOR GRANTED ONE TOO MANY TIMES IN MY LIFE AND NOW I REALLY DON'T CARE TOO MUCH ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE. I HAVE TO JUST STOP, AND NOT DO A DAMN THING.

IT WILL TAKE TIME FOR THINGS TO SETTLE DOWN, NOTHING VENTURED NOTHING GAINED. SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO BITE YOUR TOUNGE, AND REALIZE THAT YOU HAVE TO CLARIFY AND BE SPECIFIC. RULE 2 CAN HURT BOTH PEOPLE, IT MAKES THE HEART GROW FONDER, MAKES YOU REALIZE THAT YOU DON'T WANT TO PAVE PARDISE AND PUT UP A PARKING LOT. LU THANKS, AGAIN, AND AGAIN. IN DUE ( Read more... )

I GUESS, WOW, THINGS ARE FINALLY WORKING OUT. SARAH WOW, WHAT MORE CAN I SAY, WOW. SHE SURPRISES ME, AS MUCH AS I DO HER.. LU, THANKS... I HAD A BLAST LAST NIGHT, SHOPPING WITH SARAH, SONIC, AND WOW ( Read more... )

she fuckin said it, lu. yeah for once you are right. yup i will admit you are right. on a few things.
time for the road ahead. i fuckin hate being delayed and its not my fault. fuck. i hate the holidays, depressing, i love christmas, but i find no joy anymore, i have felt empty during this time of the year.
but its ok, i'll be gone.

TIME TO FLY, TIME TO LET IT BE, AND TO TEST THE WATERS. IF I SINK, I'LL SWIM. FUCK I'M A FISH AFTER ALL.

so, im delayed in process. on the ninth they are begining a major restructure of airforce bmt protocol. thus will add another week of training. due to this change my leave date has been delayed another 2 weeks. i will be here for thanksgiving but i will not be eating the good stuff. I am turning in all my records tomorrow, my ship date was going ( Read more... )

AFTER LAST NIGHT, THINGS ARE INTERESTING, I DO HAVE TO SAY THAT I WANTED TO FUCK RYAN UP FOR TAKING SHIT FOR GRANTED. C'MON MOTHERFUCKER NEED TO HAVE RESPECT, DIDNT THINK THAT FIRST PARTY SARA AND I WENT TO WAS THAT GREAT. THOUGH DANELLE, WAS VERY HOSPITABLE. SARA WAN'T TOO COMFORTABLE, BECAUSE OF RYAN AND OF COURSE HE NEEDS ALOT OF HELP. ALOT OF ( Read more... )

after last night, i feel that there are so many possibilities that could happen, lu you broke it down, though i felt odd, you got the message that i needed. i had a gut feeling for a long time what she was about. i felt it, i knew in my heart that what i thought was too good to be true, is. lu i don't know how i feel, and that the fact that i am ( Read more... )