I could stare in the mirror for hours and find no connection between my thoughts and the face staring back at me. She seems more like a poorly casted actress whose eyes show her disdain for her role. And yet, she smiles. She leads an exceptional life with above average grades and social skills. I just wish my real life were more like the person ( Read more... )

So today was an okay day...but it sucked at the same time. I am drowning in life without getting any sleep. I am reading this book called "Hurt" and it TOTALLY relates to me. Every word of it is hitting right where I am at. I had a kinda bad beginning of the day. I don't care if people like to joke around...but when there is one person who does it ( Read more... )

I dont like school. I dont like anything about school. I was so scared! I feel like I have so many big decisions to make regarding this year. I have a friend who has given me a GREAT offer...but with that offer comes many many decisions and life-altering consequences (even if they are good consequences). It's SUPER hard to explain. I had like 4 ( Read more... )

Today I ran around hanging out with people and making phone calls to people. I feel like I should have hung out with more people this summer. BUt i didnt really feel like doing anything at all. I sat around--I dunno where my summer went. I felt like it has just started, but ending at the same time. How sad! So I hear our school isnt even goin to be ( Read more... )

I was really scared about tonight. I had to talk to Jessica about something that happened from the past--but I was so scared. But it ended up that we had stuff to talk about to eachother--and it turned out great. It's so cool to have a friend that you can spill your guts out to--ya know? And it's also fun to have friends that you can just laugh ( Read more... )

So last night--I couldn't sleep. I had a friend spend the night last night...and she was soo tired, but I wasn't. Well, I was before she came over, but I was so sore from work and I went to bed REALLY late Tuesday night and then got up super early Wednesday...so when I got home from work, I was like, "ow! I am sore and tired..I'm goin to take a nap ( Read more... )

So I am trying to figure more about this--it's way confusing for me!! Lol...I am lj impaired. I am so nervous for senior year to start!!!!!!! I feel like a little 5 year old girl starting her first day of kindergarten...wow. Ok, so until I figure more out about this, i am not goin to write anymore. I hope Jessica will find my lj and then leave ( Read more... )

So I am just trying to figure this out. For all of those who can see this--maybe you could get me hints of how to add color and make this pretty?? Thanks!!