I have make-up on and my cousin is over here--she definately did my makeup and it looks really good!! We're waiting around so we can leave to take my senior pictures. I am still really nervous, and a little stressed--what if they dont turn out? Paula took her's twice...but I dont have time to redo them. Ah--I dont know what I am going to do. ( Read more... )

I am going to get my senior pictures taken today-and I am really nervous! I have all my outfits already planned out...but I just don't know how to naturally smile. I am NOT photogenic. I know they will probably end out turning ok-but I just am nervous ( Read more... )

Why do I care what my friends think of me? Why do I want them to like me so much? Why can't they just seem to notice how hard I want to be liked by them? (Jenny-this totally excluded you...you are my hero) Ah...I give up on it all. I don't care anymore.

I am really excited for tomorrow--Jenny and I get to talk...by ourselves, against a wall. I get to tell her about what's going on--she's a great friend. Also, I got some really good food for dinner tonight--today has been a "good food" day--yum yum. Ok-off to work on homework...Jenny-you are my new-found hero!

So bacially, this has been one of the most hectic weeks of my life. I feel like everything I know isnt there. Friendships are falling apart--my life in general is falling apart. I cannot seem to get my voice totally back...I am always really tired, EXCEPT, there have been a few good things. First, let me preface this lj entry to a specific someone ( Read more... )

So--I am really frustrated with a friend right now-don't worry-if you're reading this, it DEFINATELY isnt you. This friend does not have lj or any of that stuff-and doesnt even know that my lj exists. I am really sick right now and I've been going since 6 a m--but she ALWAYS has to turn it into her. I feel like crap--and have been really busy--and ( Read more... )

So this weekend has been crazy. I've been sick through it all, and basically talked my voice away. I havent really done any of the homework that is due in like an hour--and then throughout the rest of the day, but I dont care anymore. Senioritis has gotten a strong grip on my motivation. The only thing I want to do is lay in bed and sleep--or hang ( Read more... )

So we all knew that once I got a cold-I was goin to lose my voice, right? Ok, great, 'cause neither did I. I should HAVE...because every time I got a cold last year I lost my voice. Last year I didnt have a voice for like 2.5 months at once...haha, that was frustrating ( Read more... )

this is going to be short...today has been a long, but good day...MUCH better than yesterday. I got to hang out with Caroline at the Korean War Memorial for a while and talked to this boy named Evan--the CUTEST person ever alive...the only problem is that he's 4...lol...kinda illegal I must say. And then I went to work-which was SOO easy it was a ( Read more... )

I feel like I live life in a painting--like all these false emotions and crazy colors stroked in an insane pattern form an "image" of me and who I am. I get so frustrated because this painting of me isnt really me at all. Not even my best friend, whom I confide in and depend on the most, or my spiritual mentor, who knows the real me. I want to wash ( Read more... )