Comments | philistien: i'll meet you at the point of diminishing returns

philistien

i'll meet you at the point of diminishing returns

Oct 20, 2006 00:50

i'm just so fucking tired. i want to go home. i didn't think it was going to be easy, but i didn't think it was going to be this hard. in hindsight, there was no reason for me to expect it to be anything better than high school...i guess i just hoped it would be. i want to go home.

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uingu October 20 2006, 05:59:28 UTC

awww...how is it not better than high school?

philistien October 20 2006, 18:05:27 UTC

because i am sad and want to go home and i can't because i'm three thousand miles away. at least in high school i could go home.

uingu October 20 2006, 20:50:35 UTC

i'm sorry =/

philistien October 20 2006, 21:43:29 UTC

yeah. me too.

yelperalp October 20 2006, 06:30:04 UTC

:( Chin up girl, you'll hit a spot with no work and it'll be a refresher. Just about 2 months left!! :D

philistien October 20 2006, 18:06:01 UTC

two months is so long...are you well? how's your apartment?

banjouke October 20 2006, 06:48:08 UTC

It'll be scant consolation, I'm sure, but my first year of University revolved around sitting on my own in a room. Then things changed somehow and I ended up having a great time. I suppose that is meant to be a "things do sometimes get better" kind of comment, which is probably totally redundant, but it might be nice to know it happens to others as well. My other suggestion is shouting a whole lot at nothing in particular, listening to music offensively loud then sleeping for 2 days straight. It's amazing how refreshing that can be.

philistien October 20 2006, 18:08:48 UTC

thanks. i appreciate the thought. i'll try the shouting and loud music and sleeping. those all seem like good ideas. and it's the weekend now, so i suppose i can do all the sleeping i want.

adelita_dulce October 21 2006, 01:09:13 UTC

was talking to catharine nice? she seemed to appreciate it. but now we're working on finding her somewhere else to go to school. cuz we're thinking it might make her more happy. and yes. the royal we.

good luck having more fun lovey. i miss you! i feel like i haven't gone this long without seeing you since i was three. and that's a long time.

philistien October 21 2006, 04:07:50 UTC

i miss you too! it was good to talk to catherine, but i worry that doing that just feeds my unhappiness so i can't adapt at all...i really hate it here. and i really want to be somewhere else, but i don't know where. i'm afraid i'm not going to make friends wherever i am. i'm just not outgoing anymore...i used to be but i'm not and i feel completely superfluous. and i don't want to apply places again....i can't bear the rejection.

banjouke November 6 2006, 19:15:24 UTC

A picture for you:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/tsnowdon/282051218/

philistien November 6 2006, 20:33:06 UTC

yes! the troll! that is the most exciting place in all of seattle. i hope you had an amazing time there!!!