each night, i end up sleeping alone and that's fine. but some nights i wish it was different. that maybe my body pillow was a person, not an inanimate object unable to feel anything.

or maybe i wish i was like that body pillow, an inanimate object unable to feel anything.

either way, this arrangement isn't working.

post script: i did most ( Read more... )

as mentioned in the last entry, the party was largely a success. outside of joe throwing up, there were no problems. we drank, we sang, we danced on the couch. and i didn't make out with anyone! success.

sunday was lazy, as sundays usually are. went shopping with lindsey. decided to make a huge turkey dinner so we did that. fattiness was all ( Read more... )

i have a penchant for even remotely liking the absolute wrong guy. as in, the guy who has no interest in me or the guy who has a girlfriend or the guy who is ten thousand times better than me. usually, it's all of the above. but alas, i make poor life choices, despite me telling myself that i will never bother with anyone unless i know they will ( Read more... )

i had an interesting day at work today. we somehow got into this huge discussion on the bible that spawned from a talk on the end of the world. i learned a lot about christianity. i didn't know anything about it really. now i'm a little more in the know. definitely not converted but it made me see how much the bible is really a book of stories ( Read more... )

got work soon. boring boring boring.

who thinks i should come home sunday for the day?

i hate girls who are up their boyfriend's butt. and vice versa. but there's something worse about girls up the boys. i also hate boys who aren't afraid to blatantly slap a strange girl's ass while she is obviously upset walking down the street, causing her to become even more upset. i also hate boys who are stalkers. i hate emo people, ( Read more... )

i took my last classes ever as an undergrad today. i believe i completely bombed a test, which is cool because i haven't done that in a long time. way to go out in a bang.

i'm pretty much emotionless about the end of my college career. maybe it's because i feel like it was a waste. maybe it's because i'm not immediately leaving state college. ( Read more... )

day 11... still sick. must get through today and hope tomorrow, i am feeling well enough to celebrate the last of my classes as an undergrad.

i don't feel good right now. i came home from trivia and i just started crying. it's this whole graduating and leaving really nothing behind. you'd think it'd make things easier, but it's not. it's the whole i thought i had something here but i didn't. i had what i consider one of the saddest experiences ever with my own roommate today. she ( Read more... )

i came to a funny realization tonight.

the past day or so, i've received numerous text messages, messages left on facebook walls and myspace, and one or two phone calls to wish my a happy birthday. yet i don't actually have any friends to celebrate my birthday with. instead of having dinner with friends, having a drink at the bar or just hanging ( Read more... )