i haven't posted in this thing in forever. i really don't have anything good to say other than fountains of wayne is playing in philly on april 25. fuck yeah. happy belated bday, jenny. who's going with me?

if i wasn't so tired, i'd actually write. i feel like i want to talk and talk and talk about nothing at all but i'm too sleepy.

i haven't updated this thing in a long time. not that it matters, because i'm pretty sure no one is reading this anymore. but what the hell, i'm almost at absolute bottom with my life right now so i figured i'll post for nostagia's sake.

have you ever made a collection of decisions that seemed like great ideas when you made them but together ( Read more... )

tomorrow's my last night in state college. i'm enduring a range of emotions, but surprisingly i'm not near hysterics. i think as the day comes nearer, i've become more at peace with myself. unfortunately, there are some people here i'm going to especially miss, and i wish i could have spent more time with them. but i can always visit, i suppose ( Read more... )

freaking sick with worry. anxiety always seems to set in the second i'm trying to sleep so while i'm trying to concentrate on nice things, all i can focus on is my heart beating heavily in my chest and into my throat and down into my stomach. tonight is feeling particularly bad... i feel like throwing up and i'm kind of shakey. what the hell is ( Read more... )

random ass inspiration to journal in this piece of internet trash. what's been going on out there? not too much to report on. just the usual not feeling like i belong anywhere gar-bage.

have to move out of this state college apartment soon. couldn't come at a better time or a worst time, or so it seems. on one hand, it's time to move on and ( Read more... )

i don't understand how i could sleep over 9 hours straight, without waking up once in the night, and still be freaking tired this morning. i was pissed off when my alarm went off. alarms are cruel things.

haven't really journaled of substance as of late. i don't think i really care to. not much to say. hanging out, going to work, drinking, ( Read more... )

life is pretty weird. i dunno what to think anymore. but i guess ya gotta just go with it.

drunken debauchery was the theme of last night. and the story of my week. hoping that calms down.

i've been on my bed all day. i want to take a shower but i'm too lazy to get my ass up. soon. before little people, big world is on at 7. because i'm ( Read more... )

sometimes i wonder about myself. but mostly, i try not to think about it.

the past few days have been a blur of alcohol and dealing with growing up. or avoiding it at all costs. i suppose once graduation actually happens and everything has calmed down here, i'll settle down and try to find a job. but i don't want to worry about it right now.

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i start drinking much too early in the day. i also drink much too often. and too often alone.

cheers, bitches.

i'm done with school forever... or until i decide to go back.

celebrating now with tv, chicken nuggets + potatoes, and jager.