So lately I've been feeling really off.. vertigo, head aches, loss of peripheral vision, random head rushes while sitting, shortened breath and lack of energy even while going up a few stairs.. I've been confused and doubting the things going on in my life at the moment, I've felt no motivation for the good grades I'm striving for and I've been ( Read more... )

Life is going well.. life is better than excellent.. I am happier than I have been in a long time and I have soo much to be grateful for.. yet.. there are still those mornings where it seems nothing will go right. I woke up late after a night of deep thoughts and I'm not even entirely sure why these thoughts proceeded to eat away at my emotional ( Read more... )

I've come to conclude that this blog has become a sort of ghost town.. but since I used to live in Tumbler Ridge and that IS NOT a ghost town despite what some may say, I will keep it alive for as long as I feel like ranting. This past week has been positive, beaming, rainbows and flowers.. until Thursday when I decided to have a sudden mood shift ( Read more... )

I doubt anybody looks at this anymore, but it is a journal I almost forgot existed until now and I will make more of an effort, for myself, to write down my most intense emotions on this page and the life surrounding me. It's been more than a month since I've recorded my thoughts and everything I have expected this year has been so far.. surprising ( Read more... )

Since yesterday there is something off about the way I feel. I almost reached the breaking point.. I almost took the step I've longed for last year, and after realizing how I myself can force change I took a step back and a deep breath, closed my eyes, and opened them again to view the world from a different point of view. I am sorry to the ( Read more... )

I'm not sure if I should continue to blog in this journal.. It seems to have lost my interest and the only reason I got the account was to comment on other live journal accounts without having myself as annonymous.. or however it's spelt.. anyway I am watching the Life of Judy Garland, and have lost interest.. I almost won my first game of chess ( Read more... )

so I am finally better and my relaxation is slowly dwindling down as the holiday approaches and work begins once again.. anyway just finishing up my christmas shopping, to join the crazy crowds that shop last minute, finding some time to wrap everything and send those farther from home.. so I've kinda blown my volunteer program hopes..but I am ( Read more... )

So for those of you that actually read these, I have updated my page for something new.. I didn't really like the last theme and I was actually looking for something christmasy, but it didn't come to me, so instead I changed it to distorted (because that's how I feel right now) and the emotion buddy's at the bottom are stars..they're sorta ( Read more... )

I had my first exam today.. I left my house early and still managed to be running in the classroom out of breath with stares from a full intimidating room of people. All because I had to get my fix of carbs and sugar. At least I had my hot cup of spicy goodness prepared ahead of time. I left my exam after an hour and a half.. every time I looked ( Read more... )

I haven't read that book any more.. but i'm thinking I should.. I can't concentrate.. I haven't even called the places I want to volunteer yet and Christmas shopping is not even half done!! eek! Any suggestions to things you want for christmas?? email me please! I'm lost for some people.. or things I can make you if you don't know.. as for me.. I ( Read more... )