which is great. I think it's because the morning sickness/dehydration issue has been resolved and I can take my medication like I should. Also, Dr. Kwon raised my dosage of Effexor. I think that's making a difference too. I forgot to take a Klonopin today so I feel a little panicky when my mind wanders. I had my WIC appointment today and so I ( Read more... )

It's been several weeks since I've been able to check my mail or enter here. I've been feeling pretty crappy lately. My morning sickness is back, and yesterday I had to be hospitalized for dehydration again. They gave me 2 1/2 bags of IV fluids. I was there for over 8 hours and it was boring, but they said that it was a good thing that I came ( Read more... )

I totally panicked and lost it today while Rob was over. I was just so worried about packing and getting this place in order to move. Maclean must have felt bad for me or guilty or something because he left work and came home. He and Rob and I got stuff out of the basement to go to the dump. They took two carloads of junk. I hope that makes a ( Read more... )

It's evening, my worst time. We ahd a yard sale today but we only made like $10. Guess thats better than nothing. Rob was over here getting on my nerves. I think we have a new apartment, but I don't know how we're gonna pull it off, with the security deposit & all. Plus we have to move next weekend and we're not really ready. The basement is ( Read more... )

and it is my medicine.  Only not really my medicine, it's an anti-epileptic drug that looks similar to my Effexor but is actually called Lamactal.  The pharmacy fucking gave me the wrong pills mixed in with my real medicine.  I am very pissed off about this.  I mean, I'm pregnant and already worried about the meds. I've been prescribed hurting the ( Read more... )

these past few days, thats always a plus. I've just been trying to keep busy with stuff that I can stand to do ( Read more... )

Yep, yesterday was a big fat mess. I slept really late after taking Violet to school. I felt depressed from the very beginning of the day. I tried to keep busy and do constructive things, but motivation has been a major problem for me. I think it was less of a problem when I was working because the work took the part of me being busy so I could ( Read more... )

It was almost like yesterday except I played disc golf wih Rob. I didn't clean up anything major today. That's what scares me, the major cleanups I'll have to do when it's time to move out of here. Hopefully I won't be left to do them by myself. Maclean went out on an errand and Violet is in bed reading, so it's relatively quiet. I can hear ( Read more... )

But it wasn't great either. I got up & got Violet ready for school. Dropped her off. Then I came home & immediately lay down so I wouldn't puke up my medicine. Slept until 12 noon or so. Got up and met Rob at Dunkin Donuts to have a coffee and talk. He was off of work again today! We sat there for about an hour and that was enjoyable. ( Read more... )

Well, here I am on the computer and listening to "Kid A" again.  At first listen it sounds depressing, but it actually makes me feel better, keeps me sane in a way. 
I wonder if we're due for rain?  It looks dark outside - oh, there's the sun again. 
I want coffee and weed but I really shouldn't.  I wish I did not want what I haven't got. 
Oh!  " ( Read more... )