and kind of tedious because it rained all day.  I think I did an ( Read more... )

Thanks a lot, Bill.  But I can't worry about that.  No worrying!  Today has been tough.  My concentration has been bad and I got up earlier than I have been.  I need to get a day job that doesn't have long hours.  There is too much free time during the day for me.  I need to get my mind off of things. 
We're going to my mom's in a bit.  That should ( Read more... )

(1130a.m.) but I just feel so tired. It's the pregnancy I guess. After that, Mom-Mom (Mimi) came to pick us up & we went to the City Line Diner, where Aunt Mar works. I got soup and a grilled cheese. Violet ate a whole hamburger. Then we got ice cream. I got mocha almond fudge. It was chunky and yummy. I'm kind of bored now. I'm reading a ( Read more... )

I was antsy but tired, and kind of overwhelmed.
I had my psych. appt.. I have to take the Haldol still but just 1 @ nite now. Hopefully that's not enough to "zombify" me like before. I finished Ghostwrittenby David Mitchell.  It was pretty good.  Unusual.  I ( Read more... )

I'm semi- watching Phish in Vegas with Maclean.  We ate dinner from Nino Taco; it wasn't bad. 
Today was a tough day for me.  I was paying attention too much to ( Read more... )

I'm feeling a little anxious now. It's because Maclean went to Billy's ( Read more... )

I just took a nice nap.  Hopefully it won't mess up my sleep for ( Read more... )

I took my Benadryl, and I even had some chamomile tea. I guess I'm just writing to tire my eyes out a little. Sometimes when I cant sleep I make up haiku poems in my head. Maybe I'll write some as part of this "tiring out". I ate some cereal. I think it helped my heartburn. EW!! There was just a waterbug on thr floor. I tried to kill it but ( Read more... )

I've beeen feeling pretty good overall. I've been practicing the cognitive therapy. It's basically looking at the way you are thinking and then changing it to a positive way of thinking. I think it's been helpful to me so far. Every time I feel one of those panicky thoughts, I just write it down and consciously change it. I'm going to research ( Read more... )

I was disgusted and even shocked this evening upon leaving my place of employment (a.k.a. Whole Foods Market Harbor East). This is pretty unusual for me - I'm an avid fan of the gross and macabre; rotten.com and worse. But for some reason, this sight soured my night. Okay, story begins! I walk outta work after punching out. Get to the parking ( Read more... )