What I want right now quite badly is to be in Utah, drive out into the desert with a bottle of wine, a blanket, and a friend, find a place to pull off the road in the middle of nowhere, and just sit and look at the stars and feel the earth breathe.

sooo, this new apple air or whatever its called (the notebook that fits in an envelope). um, so if you have a teeny tiny, uber-thin, ultra-light computer, you're the bees knees? yet unless your car can fit a whole little league team, some 4x8 sheets of plywood and a rodeo clown all at the same time, you're a damn dirty hippie? i don't get it.

The way that relationships are portrayed on tv makes me sad in my soul. Seriously. Relationships are just about sex and trying not to get in trouble with the woman because men are stupid and insensitive and women are controlling and annoying. I just don't think thats the way it is, I think its a lot more. I know its tv, and its more ( Read more... )

Reflecting on the past year is like watching someone else's life. I did so many things I've never done before and changed so much. It was pretty much a wonderful year. Its been a year of incredible change. I began the year engaged to be married and ended it in a different and infinitely better relationship. I fell in love like I've never felt ( Read more... )

my hands are cold ( Read more... )

There is endless beauty in this world. You can't show me a movie about love and music and fate and not expect it to move me to comment. I just saw August Rush. Ok it was predictable. Ok it was formulaic. Ok it had corny child narration. But it was exquisitely beautiful if you just let that go. My heart was in my throat the whole time. My ( Read more... )

I think waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much.

I worry and fret and cry about things I have absolutely no control over.

I need to knock it off.

... yeah, that was all I had to say. What? You wanted deep?

My soul is old and my heart is free . . . shouldn't I have more answers by now?

i miss ryan . . . a lot

on a clear day i can see my forever. on the clear days i'm content to live in the moment and do my thing and enjoy my beautiful town and the smell of the leaves and i'll get where i'm going and everything will be gorgeous. most days are clear for me. i'm a pretty happy camper. then some days the clouds roll in and i have no idea where i'm going ( Read more... )