I'm trying really hard to not reach out to you because I know you don't ever want to hear from me again so I'll just talk to you here like I've done in the past ( Read more... )

So over the last couple of weeks, people have told me that I seem to be doing better than previously (I think they mean the last 2 or 3 months). That's nice to hear I suppose, but it does not do anything to modify the course that I'm on or change the decision that I've made ( Read more... )

I miss you so much it hurts.

I hate that I found what feels like the ultimate goal and it may have been taken away from me ( Read more... )

It's been 27 hours since we last spoke, in the grand scheme of things that's nothing, yet it feels like weeks. Maybe it will get easier or maybe it won't; either way, I know this is what you need and I'm going to stick it out ( Read more... )

First off, more than anything else, I love you like I've never loved anything. Meeting and falling for you has made me realize that I was lying every previous time I said "I love you" (which I had begun to suspect over the last few years anyway ( Read more... )

That was the name of the song that I was writing with Paul McCartney in a really good dream.
When I woke up, the chorus was stuck in my head:

When I lose her
I'll walk away
And I don't know
what will bring me round to another

It's not great, I know, but the dream was amazing and the fact that my subconscious wrote anything is crazy to me.

I'm going to try to get everything out here instead of actually intruding on your life anymore ( Read more... )

Everything I have is not enough ( Read more... )

A lot has happened since that last time ( Read more... )