Why is it that when I am depressed that is when I want to write? I feel like I have lost everything that means anything to me...I feel like I am stuck in a rutt, I feel like I did that night almost exactly 6 years ago...I feel like I need to go back to the hospital...I feel like I'm not safe, I feel like cutting...It releases the pressure...it ( Read more... )

Dennis is out of a job, his car is fucking up...and our lives are falling to shit...I guess the only thing right that the two of us having going right now is our un-born child...I'm in desperate need of a car...if anyone knows anything about a cheap ass car let me know...I can't really afford to pay much...I'm also willing to do payments if someone ( Read more... )

I am so tired of shit happening...yet another one of my friends from New York has died...I have no idea what happened yet...I just found out..and the people that I still talk to that know what happened are busy right now ( Read more... )

I GOT MY MUTHA FUCKIN LICENSE!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday is one month...god I love him!!!He makes me so rediculously happy...I seriously don't think I can ever go one a day with out him...he is me....*sigh*

Since no one comments on my shit anymore...I have reason to believe no one is reading this...so...As soon as I go through it and get some things off it that I want I am deleting this account

So I know I heven't updated this thing is a LONG time...so lemme start where I left off....Sagan and I are no longer together...We broke up for multiple reasons...But we both are still on good terms...I was planing on going up to New York next month....but I can't...my car has failed...and I am selling it to Chesterfield auto parts as soon as I ( Read more... )

with each day that passes I die a little bit more on the inside....

What it is People??? So I finally knocked my apartment search down to 8 apartments....And I'm going to be calling the places tomarrow and set something up for thursday to come look at them and get the applications...I hope I can get this shit down packed...I'll probably end up switching jobs or transfering to a BK closer to my home..but once I move ( Read more... )

My mind is gone...I have no personality left to me, I have only nothing-ness to continue to live the rest of my life....I don't want that...Sometimes I really believe this world would be better if I just took a bullet and left....I would be saving the rest of the world from me bringing them down with me....I have no ambition anymore...I never want ( Read more... )