Im not feeling too well today. Not physically, not mentally, not emotionally. I woke up to my sister, who has not talked to us in about a month, calling crying. She was explaining how she wants to live with us, and that she can't stand it there anymore. No one can truly know the joy that those words brought to me. I have been wanting them to come ( Read more... )

Tonight we got into an arguement about my sisters and the past. Which could probably explain the way I feel, so sorry if this happens to become a long entry ( Read more... )

Sorry I haven't written earlier - its been pretty busy around here and I guess I have just been lazy in that aspect. We have been looking for an apartment and we found a really nice place in barstow. Somewhere we continued to tell ourselves, "we're not moving way out there, no, not to barstow." We will be moving in on the 1st, if all goes well. I'm ( Read more... )

That night we laid in our sukkah, bundled up under my aunts thick sleeping bag and further covered by two blankets of our own. I turned over, looking at the ceiling and started telling my mom about what my sister and I talked about earlier, the day before I found out they werent coming. We had, had a coversation filled with laughter and ( Read more... )

Most of my life paper and pen could always be described as my best friend. I could write about anything and my words, thoughts, feelings or recolections would never be treated with in disdain or contempt in return ( Read more... )

you threw me for a whirl and turned me upside down. You showed me the deeper parts of me that I was afraid to touch. For a moment I did what I was afraid --- no terrified to do ( Read more... )

Life has always taught me that the things you try to ignore always come back to haunt you. I ---- I tend to bury them, and then further attempt to pretend they will go away -- but I know inside they never will. Every now and then they find their way to the surface, and bring back just enough pain to remind me why I tried to forget them in the first ( Read more... )

I thought I should take the time out to actually update my journal. I know I havent been doing it too often lately, although things have been going pretty good. YHWH has filled me with a sense of contentment and joy this past week. And its strange to actually be happy and pleased most of the time. Yesterday (wednesday sundown to thursday sundown) ( Read more... )

I havent updated in quite a while, simply cause nothing has really gone on. We are still waiting for the funding for that order to come in. We've been waiting so long, sometimes I really wonder if God is up there just trying to push us to the edge or see how much we can take. To make matters worse my sisters called wanting like 100$ to get their ( Read more... )

What has happened in the lat few days? Well not too much. Yesterday we almost got hit by a car on our way into the store. We were walking towards the store with our cart and this lady with 4-5+ kids in the car comes speeding through the parking lot. If we were literally a carts length ahead and didnt see her, she would have hit our bodies and ran ( Read more... )