I'm seriously going to have to find a new name or something cause really I do not want to give any impression that this journal is some kind of tribute to ashlee simpson or any of her music. people see the name "pieces of me" and now automatically think of her because of that stupid song she did!... geez.. its annoying. The reason I chose this name ( Read more... )

you know there are times when you just can't describe how you feel. No, wait...stratch that. Thats not true, at least not tonight...sometimes you just don't want to admit how you feel. I don't want to admit that I am lonely, and feel unloved. I don't want to admit that I am so envious of the peoples lives around me that remind me of what I do not ( Read more... )

So I called my dad today. And for what? To just get subjected to his subtle criticisms and insults. And you know what? As he was doing it I just kept asking myself - why do I put up with this? Then I asked "why does he do this to me?" I really don't understand it. Does he feel its his job to make his daughter feel lower than dirt?? That his ( Read more... )

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I know I haven't updated lately.. I have been super busy... working on various things, a new site layout for tstate, a new journal layout for my lj (its been taking me way tooo long) and not to mention we have been getting swamped with orders. Speaking of which Yah has really been blessing us... yes... to the point where your eyes go like this . ( Read more... )

I should update on how my week escursion went. Well, for starters it went great. I caught the bus fine, the trip was only 3.5 hours one way, but it still seemed rather long. I figured it would be better next time since I would have my sisters to talk to on the way. It was nice seeing all the landscaping once again out where I now live. It is so ( Read more... )

well I thought I'd should update really quick. Looks like I'm going to be making a 5 hour trip on a bus to LB. I really don't want to do it, but I'm doing it for my sisters. First off, dad told adrienne that he would take them up here, but now he has this idea that we should travel by bus. Why? Its only a 2 hour drive! Either he doesn’t want to do ( Read more... )

Olivia has been avoiding me, and I haven’t called them back either. Its all just too much to face I guess. I couldn't take it anymore so I decided to swallow this lump of insecurities down and just call them. Olivia answered and quickly gave the phone over to adr. I told adr to let me talk to oliv, so she got back in the phone. I told her that she ( Read more... )

ok, so I was really upset in that last entry. I went through about 3 days of inner struggle, but just came back to the only place that I know that I can last. And that’s in His arms. I started thinking to myself that if I loose all faith, then I have nothing and I am completely hopeless. Last sabbath I just released it all to Him. Whatever He wants ( Read more... )

well all that joy was short lived. What was I really expecting? that she would actually leave A behind? Boy I can sure be freaking naive at times. I just can't face reality right now. Everything keeps running through my head, but its too painful to analyze those thoughts. I just need to forget it all, and move on and get over all that. I have to ( Read more... )