I didn't sleep last night because I couldn't turn my brain off...I started reading the in law books and couldn't stop thinking about the situation and how hurt I am about the wedding and by Mr. Leonard specifically. I also can't seem to accept that I have no responsibility here. It simply does not fit with my shades of grey worldview. I cannot ( Read more... )

Book one is hilarious and mildly offensive. It is called "The Daughter-in-law Rules" and I knew it was a terrible idea when Rule #1 was to call your MIL "Mom." The book is filled with bizarre rules about how your MIL is probably right and so do what she says at all times. Including let her name your child! It literally says that if she is ( Read more... )

I am actually doi8ng fairly well today, but am trying to do well on journalling. Actually going to the gym is making me feel really positive right now. I have been thinking about raising goats a lot lately...

I am having a terrible day. I have a migraine so bad that it is making me shake. I decided to go into work late, and received an out of office reply from the person I am supposed to notify. Apparently another point of my company being so fucked up is they dont notify you when people are going to be out of town, and who you should contact instead ( Read more... )

I slept in, woke up, applied for an awesome job and now I am going to the gym. I feel really good doing stuff for myself. I talked to Amanda this morning and we talked a bit about changing my tactic with his family. She suggested that I should point out all of the stuff they do, but in a questioning/playing dumb sort of way. The example that ( Read more... )

Now that the wedding is over I want to focus on me. There is a whole lot about me that I want to chage. I am realizing that a lot of what I want to change involves my time managment skills and I am not really sure how to focus on it. I just feel like there is not enough time in ANY day and don't know how to fix it.

So I have been feeling useless/pointless lately. I hate my job, and feel stuck. So in an effort to move forward I have been thinking about going back to school. There are a few options that I have been considering, but I began to question what my path would have been without law school, and the logical continuation of my political science degree ( Read more... )

I dont know what to do about anything at the moment. This has to be a short vent bc I am at work. Danny's mom hasn't spoken to us in over 2 weeks. My mom and I are not speaking. She is totally taking over and shoots down everything that I want for my damn wedding. It is not suppossed to be like this, and I am feeling fairly desperate at this ( Read more... )

I tried to diagnose myself today by doing research on autoimmune diseases. Danny seems to think that I have one...so did all of my doctors. It is just not the one that they thought it was. I dont care how you look at it... constant muscle pain for 14 years is not normal...and not that I am stuck in my house because I cant move my neck, I decided ( Read more... )

"Roses are red, violets are blue...fuck you whore." I am watching 500 days of Summer...tis hilarious.