I've met a new guy to like. I KNOW I'll never have him. I guess I'm not supposed to date. Maybe I am that girl who will fall in love the first day and get married on the second (if that makes sense). Or, maybe I'm just that girl that will stay single forever and have a million cats. I really thought that Josh could be a cool guy. He seems really ( Read more... )

So, as I watched "Sex and the City" tonight, I realized once again that most men just want sex. Carrie met this great guy from France and took him out for a day of fun. That night, she told him she had a rule that she didn't sleep with men on the first date. She broke her rule and slept with him. The next morning, she found an envelope with 1000 ( Read more... )

So, Chris' friend Sandy is coming to town tomorrow and he's so excited. Kinda like a little kid. He has all of her pictures in frames in her room and his room is clean. But, I don't think I really care about that. I honestly have no more friends. It's not really lonely. It's just back to the way things were when I first moved here. I'll be back on ( Read more... )

so last night I had this 2 hour conversation with Chris about God and death and stuff. Now, instead of thinking about going to heaven or he'll, I view life as this place I'm stuck until I do die. I feel like no matter what happens, I'm going to die anyway. But for some reason, I'm still embarassed to do so many things. I still can't go up to guys ( Read more... )

So, I guess I've lost another friend, but I don't think I was at fault this time. She was psycho. I really don't want to talk about that though. I was listening to this song called alvarez and the lyrics go the stars will be our night lights tonight and I will be our lullaby. Isn't that cute and sweet? I thought so, and it made me think. I got sad ( Read more... )

Well, I moved to Pensacola into the dorm rooms and now i don't even go to class. I try to force myself. When I'm there, all I think about is when I can leave ( Read more... )

I don't think I really want a boyfriend, I just don't want to be alone. Its actually really weird because I enjoy being to myself sometimes. I don't even know what I'm trying to say. It would be nice to have someone to cuddle with and stuff, but I know I'm not meant to have that ( Read more... )

Ok, so I'm really sad again, but this time, it isn't my fault. My mother basically that I can't have a boyfriend. I wasn't even allowed to go to the party where he added me on myspace. I guess if I didn't go, I wouldn't be sad right now. It actually sounded like he liked me. If he didn't, I'm easily confused. He started conversations, he added me, ( Read more... )

last thursday a dude came in to tan. he was oh so nice and flirted and talked to me for about 30 minutes. He finally left after that and i was like dammit, i was talking to him that long and he still didn't get my number. But then, he calls like ten minutes later. He goes is this sheandra? and i was like yeah. and he goes oh it's me, i just left. i ( Read more... )

I'm so fricking bored. The one day i get off and i can't find shit to do. But, anyway, my dad's in town (yay!). My mother made up this stupid rule that he can't come over unless she's at home. We're going to see my new campus tomorrow. I hope i like it cos i want to leave here so bad. I found a cute guy, but i will bet you One million dollars and ( Read more... )