I've finally learned to be a big girl and let Josh go. I haven't been happy at blockbuster for a while, but I stayed because of him. He doesn't like me, and now, the job definitely doesn't give me what I need, so I'm leaving. I've put in a ton of applications, I'm just waiting to see what will happen ( Read more... )

I've finally learned to be a big girl and let Josh go. I haven't been happy at blockbuster for a while, but I stayed because of him. He doesn't like me, and now, the job definitely doesn't give me what I need, so I'm leaving. I've put in a ton of applications, I'm just waiting to see what will happen ( Read more... )

I feel so used. Who fucked up what could have happened to me? What did I ever do to deserve a major pay cut? I'm good at what I do and I like to work. I sell the most at my store, I always work and I do it well. I don't get in trouble. I don't cause trouble. I'm not always happy, but who is? I'm going from 45 hours to 13. Why does it have to be so ( Read more... )

ok. I knew this would happen. I'm sad again. But, I still think yesterday was really awesome. He told me that he meant to apologize for it. Anyway, I was talking to a customer and she said does his family have racial issues? I said he was a military brat. I guess that doesn't mean anything. She also said that he could be just using me until "the ( Read more... )

Last night Trudy told me that Josh liked me as much as he could. Well, today, he was like would you mind coming up to the store because I don't feel good. I asked him if he wanted me to bring him anything and he said no. His way of getting me to go was so I could get new movies. I went and when I walked through the door he started smiling and said ( Read more... )

I wonder if Josh ever thinks about me. Not like sexually, just do I ever cross his mind when he's not at work. I want to feel loved or be loved. I always think about him. I don't want to. I don't know what to do to stop thinking about him. I've started yoga, therapy. Just things to keep my mind occupied. But, moments like this-I still have time to ( Read more... )

Josh has a new crush. He says she looks a little like Shavon and asked me if that was okay? Why does it matter what I think? He doesn't really care. He doesn't even like me. I'm not his type. He doesn't actually have a type, I don't think. I just wish he would be mean to me. He keeps spraying axe on. I think it's because he goes poop in the back ( Read more... )

I've heard so many terrible things about Josh. If I repeat these things in my head over and over again, maybe I'll get over him. Let's see: We've already discovered that he's a fucking prick. What else ( Read more... )

After work tonight, I was seriously considering transferring. I can't keep liking Josh and working with him. It's really hard to see someone that you're obsessed with everyday. The only way for me to get over him is by quitting or transferring. If I quit, there's now way I'll get another job that pays as well with the same hours. Same if I transfer ( Read more... )

(1:58:26 PM): there really is nothing to figure out ( Read more... )