It makes me feel sick. Like I need to throw up...it makes me hate myself all over again. I'm back at that helpless, confused state that I come to whenever life hits the bottom of the barrel. Losing best friends due to such terrible reasons is one of those times where I just wish I could reverse time and set things right. I want things to go back to ( Read more... )

Amanda asked today to see my favorite blue gel-ink pen. Although I didn't know why, she unscrewed it then rescrewed it. But as I banged it absentmindedly against my knee, I realized ink was spewing out onto my pants..which, I'm sure, my mom will be thrilled about. Though, worst of all, my favorite pen is dead, leaving my poetry a little weak. Gotta ( Read more... )

I Love The 90's: Part Deux on VH1 reminded me of a little something called "6 Degrees Of Seperation To Kevin Bacon". It's the idea that you can relate to someone famous (or anyone/anything/anywhere for that matter) by just using people who know a person who knew a person, so on and so forth. BUT since Kevin Bacon isn't really doing shit these days ( Read more... )

Now, I know I'm not the most intelligent rocket scientist on the planet, but it's getting to the point where I'm thinking about quitting my job tutoring. The kid just isn't improving due to not turning in his work and being truthful, and I can't really change that. His grandma, who he lives with, keeps demanding more and more out of me, and now I ( Read more... )

A big update this time, as there's a lot going on. Let's start with my biggest ( Read more... )

I'm sitting in my room in the darkness with only my laptop and vcr giving off light...I want to be able to sleep, but I'm having minor axiety issues that force me awake. Am I going to stay home sleeping tomorrow after I get done with work? I hate having this fucked up schedule...I hate even more to keep having axiety attacks again. They were under ( Read more... )

Just decided to change the name of my journal for the new year. "Picosity" just kinda came to me.

I've been so stressed lately...like, more than normal stressed...uber stressed. I've been having a tough time dealing with certain situations in my life that all seem to be coming to a head right now. I wish I could be in San Fransisco right now. I felt so comfy there, so amazingly peaceful, like I was in a 2nd home...but, what can I say? I still ( Read more... )

Testing out some images from my summer trip to cheer me up a bit.


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Testing out some images from my summer trip to cheer me up a bit.


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