I have many things to do tomorrow. I am excited - I went food shopping and bought nice healthy food and no chocolate or junk. I am going on hiatus from alcohol for a month starting tomorrow, I wonder how it will turn out?

I made a new livejournal - I've had this one for way too long - it goes right back to just after I left Dave, over 4 years ago now. I feel like I've outgrown the name - I don't even like it anymore, typing it to log in just pisses me off. The new one is ohdarlinglove - go add me!

 I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz ( Read more... )

-Happy.
-Drinking 20 bottles of beer tonight.
-Sun and sand.
-Did I mention happy?

- I will get back on the diet, for real, no dairy, no wheat (except cous cous), no tea/coffee, no potatoes.
- I will go swimming or to the gym twice a week, and stop taking the bus up the hill.
- I will stop procrastinating and get a job/do uni work/start my reading list for the summer.

Urgh. I will be thin, I will be pretty, I will have self confidence, I will be a better person. Hungover and misanthropic right now, I start work at 7am tomorrow and life as an organised, dieting adult starts again. I'm getting too old for this.

There’s a place I go
When I’m alone
Do anything I want
Be anyone I wanna be

Newton Faulkner - Dream Catch Me

-lose weight. not to what i was when i started uni, but so i can fit into a size 14 again. this means
     a) gym x 3 per week.
     b) eat healthily. thinking about going vegetarian.
-try to be happy. go to conselling, go on antidepressants, do what it takes to make myself healthy in mind as well as in body.
-get a first at the end of 2nd year.
-start ( Read more... )

ugh. i have three essays due in on friday. i have finnished none of them so i am staying up in the computer rooms all night to finnish them. i want to relax tomorrow, pack, clean up so that ollie has a nice house to come back to on the 18th, buy him a little something to make him smile, and put apple crumble in the freezer for him. i'm a good ( Read more... )

life is slowly getting better, i can't wait for xmas, i need the break. i currently have about £35 to my name, have 5500 words due in on eth 14th dec. counselling is doing a lot to help me. its so strange that talking for an hour a week to a man named jonah makes me feel so much better about everything.